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2011-02-07T22:13:00.002+08:00

Finally, my 500th and final post in this blog.

And I'm gonna put a full stop to this.

Have started officially on a new blogsite recently for a change.

Nope, I'm not gonna delete this blog of mine, as this blog has all the memories that I have since 17 or so.

Gonna keep the other blog private for now due to unforeseen circumstances.

But yep, thanks to peeps who had read this blog before, and sayonara!

2011-01-23T03:01:00.003+08:00

Woah, its been nearly a month since I last blogged!-faints-
I'm too lazy to wipe the dust off the blog though:D Cos I know I will let it collect dust again for daysss again.

Anyways, what have I exactly done during my mia days from blog?o.o

Can't remember much as usual due to my stml brain juices. Gonna just randomly post stuffs as usual here:D

Had a bad new year eve, but a good new year day:) Celebrated new year at the strike on midnight.... in a car@.@ Afterthat had an illegal bbq session at changi beach, its fun, and I managed to get 70% of the smoke on me, I literally smelled like a burnt bbq:( But yea, not good for my health as well.

Next, hm.. next event which I remember is playing pool with the bl peeps:D Honestly, I got addicted to play pool, though my skills sucks over 9000. But that doesn't stop me from trying and trying to improve even for just a lil bit, I really don't mind spending money to play pool:)
The last time I played pool is just friday with a peep at the sch libraryXD Played 8 rounds of pool in 2 hours+. Damn, I can't wait to play pool again, but hopefully with the bl peeps:)

Still working on my part-time job@.@ Heard from peeps that the economic now is going good again, and that there will be more job opportunities. Will I finally get a full-time job? I don't know, and I really don't know why I didn't find a full-time job or reluctant. Damn my mind, what am I thinking?

Went back pco now and again since the rehearsal before performance. And remembering the performances, actually 2 performances in the same location and time and day. I remember that the first performance is honestly terrible. The new songs are messed up. And one string got broken from the solo instrument during a concerto. Awkward and tensed atmosphere. Just wondering why not get the instrument from another peep first or prepared the instrument in advance beside you and fix the string later, but rather, fixing the string behind the stage while the rest have to play another song to cover up the already cmi mess instead. The second performance went well overall though:) Definitely better than the first one, cos we finally get to practice backstage during the rest before the second performance hahaz.

I'm broke before I reached the end of the month. Due to buying stuffs, eating food, sang kbox(for the second time in my life) and keep going out and topping up money. Wil ar wil, you still owe me money wor.. nearly one month.. When are you gonna return me money? I hope sometime soon and not never@.@

Through the bl peeps, I finally found one who knows what is vocaloids, and even bad apple plus songs from K-ON!XD Didn't expect peeps to know the K-ON! song thats randomly playing out from my hp, then he suddenly say 'I played "Don't say lazy" on cello before'. Was looking at him blankly before I realised his referring to the songXD Finally a peep whom I can share part of my interests with:D Though his a more enthu fan than me@.@

Oh yea, just read finished a book called 'Unbreakable Lightness' from Portia de Rossi. Its a true story from her, and I'm sure, this book will inspire alot of people out there who has the same problems she has gone through in her life, where she has to go through her anorexic sickness and hiding her true sexuality from public, keeping herself in a closet and scared to come out to public till later on in her life. To peeps who are interested, I can assure you, its worth it to buy and read this book. Found a new and utmost respect to Portia after reading her book.

Currently listening to a mix of english, jap songs(game+ anime) songs in my blog. Been a long time since I've listened to them. Nah, make it nearly a month@.@

Alright, time now is nearly 4am, best for me to go and sleep.

Oyasumi.

2010-12-30T02:08:00.002+08:00

Back to blog again after 1 week hahaz:)

2 more days to go, and its gonna be 2011.

But I do know for sure, I'm utterly enjoyed myself for the past few days including yesterday:)

As usual, I'm lazy to describe what happen etc, but I can say, thanks peeps, for knowing you all, and really enjoyed being with you all:D Hope you all felt the same, and yes, its the best christmas I ever had with you all in the past 21 years of my life. Yesh, its that good hahaz:D
Lets hope that we can meet again for sure during cny, cos school will be starting for you all. Jy for your studies and exams, esp those who are having o levels this year. Till then, take care, lets not lose this group k?:)

~~~~~

Yet again, of cos, there will always be something -ve right?
As usual, I don't wish to talk about it.
All I can say is, the time I -WANT- to have doesn't come true. It's got me in a shut down mode now. A sorry, esp in sms, is not going to change anything. Countless -ve stuffs, one sorry in sms ain't gonna cover every single one of them. \
I WANT to have -some- time alone, just me, and my laptop, and my game, and my anime, and just me, isit that -impossible- to grant it?
Can you for once, grant it and stop saying particular stuffs every single day?

2010-12-22T23:53:00.003+08:00

Blogging before I hit the sacks! Working tmw again, and working on monday was pretty boring. Literally walking back and forth from the front to the kitchen and back. And yesh, very few customers@.@

Went to Universal Studios at 10am on tues with pauline's family:D It's pretty obvious I'm part of the 'kids' section hahaz! The kids likes to talk and play about with me throughout the tripo.o; Even a couple of kids who never seen me before started warming up to me before half the day has passed hahazx.x
Attend the Shrek show... twice:D 3D is nice, and together with the effects from the chairs we sat is double the awesome-ness:D
Went for different rides, esp one where we totally got drenched from the splash ride at jurassic park; diedie have to buy a new shirt, thats how wet we werex.x;
Was afraid of riding roller coasters before, but thanks to that two kids whom I always played with at the cafe, I took that egypt ride, not once, but THRICEXD It said about dramatic acceleration, backwards motion etc, and yea, I LOVE it XD At least theres no 360 degrees, think I probably vomited by then@.@
Not to forget, total 3 bruises on both my knees:X Energetic much?@.@
Lots more, but then, I'm lazy to post lex.x; I rather have those memories in my head, and hope I can go there again next year, where everything should be fully done and opened by then:D
Pics are at fb, most of them were taken by pauline, but those are at her fb profile thoughx.x

All in all, I had fun:D Whole started from 10am, and we left the place at 7++pm. For sure, we were damn tired and sticky by then hahaz! Thanks pauline and the kids for inviting me to universal studio, and thanks pauline's sis for treating me for the tix to universal studio:) At first suppose to pay, but in the end she just say its alright, just don't forget to treat her for a meal the next time we metXD Damn happy and grateful, and I'm glad I didn't waste her tix too, since I went for almost all the rides, some not once, but twice and thrice:D Bought a couple of souvenirs from the place, since I don't know when I will be going back there againx.x Oh wells, I love the tshirt I bought after that splash ride:D Black and grey, my fav colour as usual?:X
Grateful yet again, that pauline told me to take a day off from work today to rest hahaz:) She know's I'm lazy too, oops:X

Oh wells, working tmw, nitez world!

2010-12-20T01:33:00.004+08:00

Back to post before I go to sleep:)

Went to help out in blcc performance last night, performing xmas songs:X Like Ai theng said, we aren't nervous at all when performing for other cc, but super nervous when performing from our school hahaz. Tbh, I was kinda sleepy when we are about to perform on stage-oops-@.@
Slack about after performance at boon lay's temporary practice room hahaz. Had zomg curry chix rice and double zomg green tea. Why zomg? Cos I don't like spicy rice for dinner and ESP green tea....:( The weird taste in my tongue, ergh. Had kit kat + sweets(thanks shuzhen:D) to wash off the taste though:D

Went JP with xiao di and few peeps from blss like ai theng, ying xiu, xuankai etc:D Played ddr, and honestly? It brought back lots of happy memories before, but sad ones now. Sigh. Putting those sad memories aside, its fun to play and mingle around with the rest:) I've totally rusted with ddr, barely passed on light mode:X Nub alert@.@ Oh wells, since that incident, I've stopped going arcade at least one year, much less glance at ddr.. But to see jason, ai theng and yizhan play ddr sure is fun fun fun:D Seeing siew hui dance till so lihai at ddr, really make me go 'wow' at her hahazx.x Don't ever make fun of a small gal in sec 1, shes a pro at ddr!-kowtow-
Thanks for the night blss peeps:)
To be able to blend in with the crowd, since their age grp is between 13-16 and 19, it makes me happy and abit sad at the same time hahaz.. Sure I'm 100% myself, being happy, able to laugh and just be myself.

But.. to let reality hit me in the face, I'm 21 years old. I only have a part time, 2010 is ending, the only good chances for me to get full time is this year, since it'll be more harder for me to get a job next year once the new batch graduates. Am I one of those peeps who will never get a stable job before 22 years old? Sigh..

But yep, my 18-year-old mind wants to go out more often, as I rarely meet/hang out with people during my pri and sec school days, so much so that I don't know how to go orchard, marina square etc during poly, don't need to say about mrt lines, I sucks at those at those times. Don't need to say friends either, I'm pretty anti social with a couple of friends, tv and games are my friends and best friends at that time mainly hahaz. Till now I'm trying now and again to pull myself out of this shell. Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't.

I wonder, when will I finally settle down.. Counting down to 2011..

2010-12-17T15:14:00.002+08:00

To start off the post, mum went to KK 2 nights ago, but shes back home this afternoon!:D Not gonna say the details la hahaz. But yea, I skipped 2 working days in a rowx.x

I'm back to play the keyboard time and again, so far learning 'to zanarkand' and 'dango daikazoku'. Seems that I fare better in the latter one though@.@ To zanarkand too chim, but not giving up!:D

Request for my pa to buy an acoustic guitar for me hahaz. Actually, dad borrowed afew hundred bucks for me, he wanted to return, but I told him to invest on a electronic-acoustic guitar instead, so both of us can play:D Just hope I won't stop playing after awhile due to my lazy personality@.@

But yep, things have been going smooth, and I went to a pub with wormmie last week:D Tried out screwdriver since thats the lightest % of drink: taste literally like orange juice:/ Next time gonna try something abit more %:D Maybe that long island iced tea?:X Worm has abit of trouble with that though, might not fare well for me too@.@

Next, I wanna watch Tron, I wanna watch Narnia...:( Narnia gonna bb soon, hope I can watch before it poofs though!

As usual, the problem I have ain't over yet, but, I can't feel it now, currently. I feel more free doing my favourite stuff now, like games, piano, listening to youtube music. Overall, back to my lazy days, but mainly, keyboard is what I love the most, gotta relearned everything, cos I forgot all except for canon, didn't touch the keyboard ever since my life has include another peep. But, I'm gonna go back to keyboard again, next on the list will be relearning hikari.

But yep, gonna stop here for now:) Gonna try force my lunch down my tummy, it has been sitting on the table since 1pm, now its 3+pm@.@ om nom nom cold food-faints-

2010-12-13T00:53:00.002+08:00

Either its just me, but peeps seem to be blogging lesser nowadays. Wells, I'm one of themx.x

Nothing much to talk about as always, been working continuously for the past week. Played with the 2 kids + 1 more, accompany lunch with a peep, skipped CO. Again and again, I seriously won't be surprised if it got disbanded if this goes on.

Hm.. Surprisingly, the kids asked me to go Universal Studios on 21st with their familyo.0; I asked the boss and she also don't mind at all hahaz. Am gonna pay just 50 bucks for it, its better than original price ya:D Hope that I will have fun on that day too, maybe my boss don't mind cos I can play and interact well with the kids?x.x Oh well, me has kiddy nature in me:D

The mini fitness corner at my neighbourhood was finally done. Went to check it out, and to my dismay, its just 4 mini exercises x 2 side by side. Oh well, not like I'm that active for those anyways, I'm just too lazy!-faints-

That's also the reason why I have a weak body, psh.

Not doing much on sat, practically like an off day for me, aka slacking and rotting at home while facing the laptop for hours.
For today though, forgot about EOY cosplay event at RP, till josh told/remind me about it. As a first timer, I went to check it out in the end in the afternoon.
Checking out cosplays in real life compared to pictures sure is differento.o Nonetheless, I enjoyed it:D Able to know what chars are from which anime is a plus.
Luffy from one piece and Vocaloids sure is getting popular in this event hahaz. Naruto seem to be becoming endangered for some unknown reason. As for K-ON!, able to see a Yui and Azusa cosplayers, pity no Ritsu, Mio and Mugi?:( Even saw haku and sen from spirited away lols! But they don't seem to be gaining any sort of popularity.. Even kingdom hearts seem to become endangered too:(
One thing to remember though; its very awkward for me to go alone to check it out in the first place, best to bring a friend or two to attend these kind of events.
Thank goodness teck lim, josh and yusri went too, since josh's sis and her friend were cosplaying halloween rin and len for the event hahaz.
Hope I can attend another cosplay event again:D

1 more week before school holidays, I can't wait!:D

2010-12-05T16:45:00.003+08:00

Am so tired today!

Woke up at 3pm, for the first time since monthss:D

Anyways, had been staying over at a friend's house with another friend on fri night hahaz.
Wh fetched me first before fetching gwen, as she had a function going on at centennial hotel till 11++pm. Chatting up with wh all the way through the journey, as she had been studying in new zealand and came back afew weeks ago, before leaving to new zealand again on feb.

After fetching gwen, we had supper at macdonalds nearby westmall:D Was around 3+am by the time we reached wh house.
First time going to her house, semi-detached house I think. Damn surprised at the amount of porcelains in her living room, dining room, and in each and every floor o.o; Oh yea, her father was awake the whole time, cos he adores his daughter hahaz, and went to sleep only after we got to her house. One things for sure, his mood is very cheerful:D Played some brain games and manage to sleep at 5+am... only to wake up at 8+am, thats my case anywaysx.x The other two were completely knocked out till 9+ hahaz!

Having cakes and bread at her house for breakfast, we slacked awhile in her house before her bro fetch us to clementi during noon, where we took a train to kallang to watch walking with dinosaurs:D
Things cropped up before the show starts, thats my case too anyways. Throwing the -ve memories aside, walking with dinosaurs is a plus:D Loving the baby dinosaurs and baby t-rex!:D Got shocked when the comet 'hits' the earth. The lightings really super effective lols! One things for sure, the dinosaurs looked damn realistic:D Creativity is a plus throughout the whole show:D
Recommended to those who wished to watch:)

Hmmm, went to watch Rapunzel in 3D right after that at marina square, and thats my first time watching a 3D movie as well. Other than the 3D spec falling off -my- specs sometimes, the show is damn hilarious and unexpected:D 3D sure is a whole new experience:D But yea, giving 5 stars for this movie, recommended for any peeps who loves comedy all the way:P Rapunzel sure is a epic character in this movie:D

After that, went to have dinner at Asian's kitchen at Raffles City. We didn't eat much as we had our filled while watching the moviex.x All I know is I've got a new dad and mum, pshhh! Hahaha. Oh well, it kinda fits, since I'm the youngest, while they are only a year and 4 years apart from mex.x Went to have a stroll and talking about something disturbing about a particular case about me before we parted ways at 11+pm. As long as nothing is solved, it'll always be disturbing and -ve. But anyways! Thanks guys for inviting me to stay over and bringing me to watch walking with dino! Hope we can meet up again before wh leaves for new zealandx.x

Happy stuffs aside, maybe its fate or etc.
Fate died yesterday. Just got to know about it when I checked the tank just now.
And unfateful event happens yesterday before walking with dino started.
Is this all fated?

~

2010-11-27T16:15:00.002+08:00

Back to blog!

Been working for the whole week. Not to forget, going to the staff toilet every 15 mins just to cough and etc. Having the flu the whole week, oh noes.
The kind boss made me something a chinese med drink one night when she reached home, so damn good of her, thanks:D
The 2 kids didn't get angry etc when I told them I'm can't play with them. Instead, I'm more than happy to play board/card games with them. As usual, as long as I'm willing to play, they are happy too. Thus.. we've been playing card/board games continuously for the whole weeko.o

Still coughing so far, flu is getting better, but ain't fully recovered yet. The weather lately also cmi, raining almost every day, and not raining in the morning when I'm not working:(

Got addicted to harvest moon games atm. Including Dj max portable 3, dissidia, and vocaloid:)

Lastly.. Saturday seems to pass by so fastx.x Working in 2 days time.. so damn fast:(

Laterz~

2010-11-21T23:11:00.002+08:00

I'm still sick!

Been coughing like hell, more worse than my previous coughing. Meds doesn't seem to work. Working tmw as well-faints-.

Can't sleep well at all last night. Imagine me trying to sleep at 12am, and still able to hear my hp vibrating at 3am. Body aches like hell. Even the chinese doc say it'll take at least a week for me to be recovered@.@

No matter what, must keep on moving. 1 month to go.

2010-11-20T01:54:00.002+08:00

Back again! I'm sick -again- too:(
Sore throat followed by dry coughing with a vomiting feel.

Don't have the mood to post much since after work.
Didn't expect stuff to happen.
Worst case scenario is caught red handed.
With no explanations, I went bonkers and shoot with -the- 'mum'. A scary mum.
Of all days, its today. I'm very sorry, to you.
First time this happens, I'm scared of myself.
I hope its the last time to see this side of me.
Chaotic side. Makes me think of the words thats being continuously said the past few days ago, 'welcome to hell'. Quite overboard eh? But thats really what happen to me.

Totally regretted. Cried. Feeling so bad about it. I wonder how people will feel if they saw this chaotic side of me. Cmi.
To feel those cmi trembles all over me, that only folding my arms across my chest helps little. With 'mum' seeing my trembles from a metre away, and demanded me to unfold my arms cos its 'rude', helps lesser.
Looking up at my hands, seeing them trembling oh-so-clearly. Images flashed across my mind, repeating over and over again, about that incident. Found myself smiling bitterly with my eyes fixed on a random spot in the neighbourhood, where I'm mostly alone in a secluded area.

No matter what, whats done is done. All I can do is apologise, and hope for forgiveness. Even if I'm given bits of saliver over my face and arms, with her sarcastic patting on my back and smiling oh-so-lol at me, afterthat a fake begging to me with more splatters of saliver towards me. Sarcasm ttm.

Didn't know a quarrel can lead to such drastic consequences. Didn't know a simple threat from her, can make me go haywire. Gen is going crazy.

Tmw's a better day? Sigh. Your gonna be gone from sg in 4 hours time, and I'm still awake when my sickness came back to visit me this morning.

Looking at the lil goldfishes you gave me today over my laptop, with your watch safely beside my laptop. Re-reading at the card you wrote to me. All those gifts in less than half an hour before the incident happen.

I will take care of the watch, listen to its tickings whenever I shake it, like heartbeats. Looking at the dozen goldfishes, where there are 3 main bigger ones: you, me, and fate.

I remembered one of the lil poem/rhyme which I wrote in the card to you 5 days ago, about my gift towards you.
Really hope that it'll come true. Like what you say, it'll be near where my heart is. Will be wearing that every single day hopefully, awaiting for your return.

To my dearest, have a safe trip, have fun with your buddy, good luck for studies, and hope it'll be a fruitful experience with the exploring after that:)
You'll been missed, terribly, by me, in afew hours time.

Je t'aime

2010-11-14T14:41:00.003+08:00

Ahh! I forgot to blog as usual lately!x.x

Sunday atm, the rain is damn heavy man. I can't even go out till it stops. Oh bother, when will it stop?-faints-

Hm... Since the past week, I've been sick. Didn't go work, didn't go CO. Literally rotting at home and coughing my guts out. Chinese med doesn't seem to work on me too:( Is my body getting more worst each time I get sick? Panadol is already affecting me negatively.

For this week, I went back to work till Tuesday. Mum has been hospitalised on tues afternoon. Since then, I stopped going to work, and visit her everyday since wed. I'm going off later to visit her again once the rain stops. Heard that she -might- be discharged tmw. I don't know what the doctors here are doing. The results cmi, they don't know what sickness she got!!! And now they are using a new x-ray which is 'better' than the previous x-ray she's been to. To save their face cos they can't find the exact condition and letting her stay in hospital for nearly a week? Eating $$$x.x My mum also z. But yea, she had jaundice before she stayed in the hospital with other unknown sickness. Now shes got her blood back to her body, jaundice 90% gone.

For me? I had weird sore throats+ phelgm in the morning whenever I woke up, and phelgm stuck in my throat the rest of the day. Guess I'm not fully recovered still. Been avoiding chicken for a whole week till yesterday when my dad bought me a chicken burger from kopitiamx.x Working tmw thats for sure. I've been missing too many days of work.

Now that my mum's in the hospital, theres only left with me, my dad and the lil ones. Made beef balls with cheese for cookie, and he loves it!:D No more fishfood for the fishies, but I think they can last at least 3 days without them-oops->.>; Hamsters, as usual, sleeping around, especially during rainy days hahaz.

Haiz. 4 more days for performance, 5 more days before ....x.x Hope I will get used to it without you around. Hopefully.

Alright, shall stop blogging now. Its still raining, heavy but not cmi like earlier hahaz. Gonna prepare food for cookie and all before I left house.

Laterz peeps!

2010-10-31T00:21:00.003+08:00

Boo! It's been nearly a month since I last posted! I even forgot I had a blog for awhilex.x;

As usual, I can't exactly remember what I've done in this one month.
But for sure, I remember about my bday celebration hahaz.
Thanks to those who came to my chalet, thanks for the gifts, and thanks for everything:D
Though the cake part.... It takes me 5 mins+ to wash all that chocolate off my hair:( Imagine seeing brownish water while showering your hair, ewww! Not to forget that my hair smells chocolatey, haha!

After that, I remember going to genting highlands, 4D3N:)
Unforgettable trip, I'm loving it. Bought a dizi there, and just nice didnt overspend the amount of money which I've changed, and managed to play both indoor and outdoor theme park in just one day:D
Checked out the casino, and I won't forget the young security guard, who stopped me to check my IC, and I remembered clearly what he said, 'Hm, 10th oct 89, today's 11th oct, happy birthday!' lols!! Really make me laugh when he said that:D
The place, is damn big, and damn smokey:( Went in for around at most 15 mins then got out of that place. It's till the very next day when I re-enter the casino, then I realised theres a non-smoking area for gamblersx.x Of cos, I didn't gamble! I'm a good gal-coughs-:D

Hm.. Been reading up on twilight series, now currently on book 3 thanks to shuzhen:D Hopefully I can finish book 3 within one monthx.x

After that, I've experienced another set of bad happenings. Same stuff happened, I can't take it. What I wish for didn't happen, what I didn't wish for did. Promises broken, I don't feel any assurance at all. I need assurance, damnit. Or I will keep doubting, and continue being unsure. Sigh.

Reflections just around the corner. I still need more time to try to improve during practice. Been having troubles to play the correct tune through all the songs, and some are important in dizi parts. Jy gen.

Started to apply for more jobs through different companies and hospitals. Now I'm just waiting patiently. Hope my luck is good, or I will be receiving 0 emails:(

Unable to find a kingdom hearts blogskin consist solely of Roxas and Ventus, haiz. Was hoping to find a new blogskin last month, but to no avail. But I'm still gonna try to find something similar to it!

Addicted to vocaloid games, I love some of their songs:D Len is cute:D

Hm.. Unable to sleep well at least 1 hour in the middle of the night, no matter what time I sleep, due to personal problems. I don't like the thought of going to see a doc, haiz. If this got more worse, that will be my call.

Alright, hopefully I will try to post more the next time, laterz peeps!

2010-09-28T01:52:00.002+08:00

I'm going mad.

I don't even know what I'm talking anymore.

One day your this, the other day your that.

I bought a cake and a gift which is worth hundred bucks for you, and the gift was in a rubbish bin in an hours time without us knowing. Fated?

Before that I cried like a pitiful baby just cos I'm abit angry over a certain stuffs, and found out that I'm wrong?

Rai told me something, explained to me, and, really talked to me, being a listening ear, replying on the spot whenever I say something, and its not just afew words, its sentence after sentence, like how I talk, and backing each sentence with an explanation.

After what he said, my mind's gonna explode.

I wish I can be unconscious and stop thinking and be at peace.. I'm really going mad and not knowing what I'm thinking or saying..

2010-09-21T00:11:00.004+08:00

Gonna post a short bit before I sleep. Mainly, my non-stopping thoughts racing through my mind. Of cos, they are negative, ppl not interested don't have to read the ones below.

Stuff happened again, sigh.
I'm being called arrogant and self centered, haiz.
First time I'm being called that.
Other than the above, theres:

Childish, sensitive, blur, emotional, irresponsible, lazy, not independent, poor organiser/planner, can't hear things well, don't understand ppl, ppl say A I say B, don't know what ppl are trying to mean when they talking, irritating, loves arguing, loves quarreling, always the one that first started an argument or quarrel, short temper, can't meet ppl's expectations or fulfill last min plans, always the one who triggers -ve stuff to happen.
Edited on wed 11+pm: new one down the list, 'unreasonable'. Haiz.

What else?
Can anyone continue to state down more bad points about me besides from the above?
Can anyone even tell me what 'good' points do I have?

Cos, in my previous 2 years of life including now, the ones above, the first time I've been hearing repetitively from the same person even now. Depress and low self esteem started, finding myself having lesser motivation and no confidence, started to get more lazy, rather rot at home than meeting any peeps. Finding myself more difficult to interact with ppl. All I want to do, is crawl into a shell(which I already am), and not letting anyone pull me out. So far, theres only one peep who has been trying now and again to pull me out of my shell to meet new peeps, whom I'm very grateful towards.

Am I that bad? So bad that I have countless bad points, but the number of good points I have is less than the maximum number on one hand? Isit so difficult for me to hear a small praise, or just something +ve towards me? I find it so. It's so difficult, its as if I'm finding that lucky mini needle in a haystack. And that very needle would prick my finger the moment I found or touched it.

I'm not God, I'm not a genius, I'm not a mind reader, I'm not a psychologist.

I wouldn't know what exactly you want when you rather keep quiet and want me to know what exactly your thinking.
How am I suppose to know your not meaning what your actually saying, when you can still double and triple -confirm- to me its a yes, when in the end, you flare up cos its actually a 'no'?
How can I even make you happy, when you rathered close up on me and kept stuff to yourself most of the times, while I opened up to you with no secrets hidden?
How can I be happy, when bad points were thrown at me more than I can count?
How can I feel that things are alright, when you can do those hurtful actions, and even more hurtful words after that?
Why can I tolerate all these, but the moment I threw a hurtful sentence at you, you just can't tolerate at all?
How can I even feel secure, when you can keep saying you can find someone better and -prettier- than me anytime?
Yea, I'm lousy in alot of ways, cos you can tell me confidently that your better than me, that I'm boring, that I can't plan, that I can't this and that.

Your always bringing up those 2 words everytime your hurt by just my -words-. Saying reasons that your tired, you had enough, you can't tahan, that you've already been patient enough for me to find a full time job cos you've -supported- me and I've owe you money, and wanting to rely on me on anything but find it impossible, that theres always continuous arguments which you don't like, wanting me to be more mature, able to dress more nicely, and alot more.
Isn't it funny, that you hurt me over 10 times more, words, actions, but not once I thought or said those 2 words to you? Instead I cried, got sad, and made you more irritated. I can't afford to even be angry at you, why? Cos the moment I started getting angry while being hurt, 'I' will be the one that 'trigger' the argument, and there goes one more reason why you wanted those 2 words, and whenever theres an argument, you just rather shut down, have nothing to say to me, or agreeing to every word I'm saying just to end the argument. It may seem nothing to you, but with your replies of 'whatever, ah la ah la give in to you, horz ok, ok, ok, I change to whatever you want me to be, I change to adapt to what you want, hm ok, anything else? nothing? good, we have communication breakdown, we have diff ideas, dunno who push who, I have friends that don't argue for 4 YEARS, dun argue, words have no impact on me, I don't have obligations, I'm scared of you when you angry cos arguments always started, I am sick and tired of it, I felt dead towards everything, etc'

If no one felt abit z or angry etc at all with those replies besides you, I really have no comments.

Theres so many things which I can say out in a go, cos I'm just typing out what my mind is thinking. Going mad due to all these? Maybe. I can even remember when you looked at me after an argument, its as if I'm a stranger to you. I'm being pushed away indirectly, I'm being ignored, and you'll just either walk your own pace with afew steps away from me, or even worse, walked away from me and went home straight afterwards while I'm waiting at the same place like an idiot.

Yes, I know I'm a fucking idiot for even hoping things will turn out for the better, thanks for me being so naive and stupid.
I know that your so dominant and controlling over matters, your expectations way high above me, but still I don't want to step back.
Whenever those two words are being mentioned due to your short temper, I rather cry, give in, apologise, rather than being angry and shooting at you non stop, cos tmw is another new day, and your temper will be gone by then, so will those two words.
You felt that buying gifts for me is enough, saying those are actions which I can't do the same at all. Yea, I can't do the same, cos I don't have the fucking money! At most I can buy the sweets you like, or buying a book for you and anything thats within my budget. I can't buy bags, big and small to you, clothings or something practical to you cos its over my budget! Are actions the only thing thats important to you? Words mean alot to me, you don't say it, but rather you find it so easy to say out my bad points and saying those two words and the reasons that followed. Is planning for every outing that important to you? So important that if theres ever a outing without a plan you will be black-faced for the whole day and treating me very coldly?

Nvm, mind block. Just thinking about the current matters already makes me moody. Comon. Even the way your talking to me lately, I can 100% confirmed you don't talk that way to your friends at all, and you can still accuse me that I'm not talking the way I used to be?
I've been labeled all those bad points at the very beginning, you of all ppl, including arrogant self centered today. Whats more tmw? 2 days after? 1 week after?
Shall I take it that I wasted 2 years of my life due to being so childish and naive, and keep on tolerating and hoping you can treasure and cherish every single day, and hoping things will turn out smoothly? I sacrifice co, work, and school just for you, and its never enough!
Am I being used or something? Or just being a substitute whenever your bored?

I'm dreading the countdown to my birthday, I'm dreading the countdown -after- my birthday. You fully know why. The genting trip is gonna be a disaster if you want things going your way, if you keep being confident that your right, and I'm wrong. I don't even know if theres gonna be a genting trip with -you- or not. If you can say you don't want to go that easily, its obvious how you see me as. Oh wells, its -YOU-, you don't bother with what anyone thought or felt, as long as you think your right and happy with it, the others are the least of your concerns, or your not concern at all.

Looking at your sms now, you can even say that what I'm saying now is totally diff from what I am doing the past few days. What do you mean? I don't even know what to reply. Did you even ask yourself the same qn? That what your saying now is totally diff from what you are doing the past few days?
What do you want me to reply you? No matter what I reply, its confirm a moody tone, cos thats how I'm feeling, moody and hurt. And as usual, 'I'll' be the one that trigger another argument again.

Give up. 3 years of my feelings, I rather they be gone, I rather get into an accident and forget about you, but do you know, its so diff for them to be gone?

I rather turn towards the darkness now, into the shell, close up, and try not to trouble anyone, rant on anyone, which is of cos diff. I should go back to the days, where I don't interact much with ppl, where I'm that lil kid who's antisocial, where toys of mine are the ones that grew up with me instead of ppl. It is obvious, my interaction fails, my speaking fails. I rather be that quiet gal that ppl know, that quiet and eccentric gal.

Who can even pull me now as I blog? None. I don't know who can really pull me out, and make me go back to that happy go lucky gal again.

Who?

2010-09-19T22:30:00.002+08:00

Afew more hours before I'm back to work, whoosh!

As what I said yesterday, went to my collegue's house to celebrate hari raya hahaz.
Besides me and my mum, 7 other collegues went as well:D
Honestly, I love how they arrange their furniture and etc in their living room. Damn artistic feel the moment I step inx.x They even have a swing seating thingy on a separate corner!
*How I wish that my dream house can have that artistic and homely feeling towards anyone that enters the house*

As what I expected, the food that the family cooked are all spicy except for one dish... fried chix wings:D Ate 6 in a go, fatty mex.x;
The family even on a cantonese movie, 'the musical vampire', which is an old show hahaz. But! The main thing is... even malay families watch cantonese showso.o even yana is listening to korean songs, thats very very interesting o.o;

Afterthat, went home after returning library books, and slept on the sofax.x
I wonder how the food I had earlier digest man:/ fats produced!
Am thinking of swimming, but so far I'm too lazy tox.x Can feel myself getting bigger in a wayx.x

Hao ba, don't want to post that long hahaz, nite peeps!

Signing off~

2010-09-18T23:33:00.003+08:00

Hello!

Its finally the weekends, sun in half an hours time, and back to work on monday hahaz.
My mood is getting better:)

I like to work lately, the fun bunch of collegues that I have:) They literally brighten anyone's day even when theres thunderstorms brewing just outside the cafe hahaz. Though theres only afew now that its school holiday, but we sure had fun chatting and teasing each other:D

The auntie who gave me the advance bday gift started lending me 6 books in a go which her daughter had read, cos both her daughter and me just love reading books:D Her daughter doesn't mind lending me at all! Thanks to both of you:D Now I have more books to occupy my time! But her daughter said that twilight's 2nd volume is missing, wells, I'll be delighted if anyone is willing to lend me the 2nd volume of twilights:)

Boss's daughter and niece came, of cos, to ask me to play with them as usual hahaz. This time I didn't reject or push them off as my spirits are +ve that day hahaz. Ate, play hand games with them, catching and chato.o; Theres a part where both of them tried to see how strong they are against me, so they each grab an arm of mine, and started pulling>.>;
Result? Me and the boss's niece fell down together, while the boss's daughter got away unscathed, cos she let go of my arm when she realise I'm about to fall, lols!
Got two baluku on both my right knee and arm and some teared skin at my right elbow, owned:( and yesh, thats the right arm that the boss's niece was pulling before we fell:(
Other than that, its fun to have them around:) Less lonely in fact hahaz!

Next, bought hamster stuffs for chubby and baby on thurs hahaz, got a new toy for baby as well, cos he doesn't like his previous one at allx.x Hope he'll like this current one!:D Changed both their bedding, and finally renewed their bathing sand, both happy lil peeps atm!

Today's considered my finally resting day.
Slept in, woke up, read finish one of the books in 3 hours hahazx.x 5 more to go! But yea, by the time I read finish, its already 5+x.x
Fed boy, using the laptop as usual hahaz.
Afterthat, went to get a haircut before having dinner with my parents:)
Wells, more like trimming:( I don't see any diff when the peep finish 'cutting' my hairx.x It's still.... long:( Maybe a shorter one next time!
Had my fav kwap chap at marsiling there:D

Other than that, here I am, listening to blog songs, blogging, and just felt.. damn lonely o.o;
Didn't talk to any peeps today, only my mum, dad, and dog hahaz.
The shell is growing biggerx.x
Guess thats the extend of me being anti-social ba, have to either get used to it or change it.

ANYWAYS!
Going to a collegue's house tmw to celebrate hari raya:)
Didn't see yana and hasika for a long time since they started schooling, but oh wells! I can see them tmw! Just hope that things go smoothlyx.x
And after tmw, back to workx.x

I can now conclude that my application ain't successful, but I won't give up, though I'm still lazyx.x Job career fair coming next month, I'm gonna go check it out hahaz. Before that, my eyes are open for the joblist at jobcentral. Jy!

Ending for tonight, take care peeps!

Signing off~

2010-09-16T20:43:00.002+08:00

Yoz, back to blog again!
Been 4 days eh?

Nothing much happen hahaz, just that this week lots of moodswings occurred at random timingsx.x
Been affecting some peeps, but I can't just bring myself to say 'sorry' to them face to face, but I can say those on the spot last time. Haiz. Whats wrong with me?

Anyways, songs from here, youtube, work etc, has been distracting me, seriously cheered up when I went for work hahaz. Though theres very few customers, but some of the collegues there are always joking and teasing about in a good nature way:) Sometimes time flies quite fast due to chatting random stuff hahaz..

Had work + co the past two days, guess my energy cmi, I'm literally half asleep the moment I reached homex.x
Am hungry now, and been craving for kfc for a month!:( Hopefully I can grab kfc before I lost the cravingsx.x

Hm.. nothing much to post, mind's been pretty blank lately, can't remember muchx.x
Yawns. Best I finished this post now:)

Signing off~

2010-09-12T22:26:00.002+08:00

Its 10.27pm now!:D
Wootz! I feel so relieved and happy since last night after performance! Like one big burden off my back!:D
Didn't know linzhi went for the performance as well, at least I knew someone whom I know!
Met Guo Peng laoshi as well, both of us chatted with him before and after our performances for each was over, and had a drink after that:)
Overall, what I'm stressed, frustrated at, is over:D

One thing: thought I can play kh2 very shiok for once since parents aint home for the 3 days. Turns out I didn't even touch the game at all=.=

Thanks peeps for the encouragement wor! You know who you are:D
And thanks shuzhen for yesterday!Hope I didn't bore youx.x

Damn, I was suppose to type something in blog about afew words that were being said in the mrt yesterday, but I can't remember!:( Damn, how I wish I have abit of photographic memoryx.x

Felt like playing kh2 like, nao or later, before I sleep. Pshh! Work tmw, thank goodness the last day of ut is on tues, I felt like taking a break again!x.x

I realized, I felt so damn light and happier just cos last night event is over, hahaz!

Oh yea, cos my parents went for holiday, I had milk and bread for brunch, and only fast food for dinner o.o;
Fri night is macdonalds, sat night is burger king, thought I can get kfc for tonight hahaz, but it didn't happenx.x
Has anyone attempted to eat at different fast food outlets each day? I always thought of doing that:D If I had kfc tonight, it means I had ate at 3 different fast foods for 3 days! Okay, I'm sick in the mind=.=;

I seriously, seriously, need a hair cut. I just don't know whether I want to cut it to medium length, or just get some boyish short hair cut, pshhh. Tying hair everyday really makes me very very sian.
I seriously, seriously, need new clothings. I'm thinking of getting boyish clothings, oh noes. Can anyone help me become more feminine or something?:(
I also thought of buying new bags, especially smaller bags. I have 4 A3 size bags or something? I wanna get smaller bags, just big enough to put a book, a wallet, and other small thingies.

I can say all these, but I can't buy:(

Yes yes, I haven't got a full time job yet. My application aint accepted I think. And I'm only interested in working in laboratories in hospitals or something. As long as its hands-on, I'm in. But theories suck for mex.x

Lots of stuffs has been happening the past few weeks as usual.
And theres this thought always occured in my mind....'

Anyways, end of post for tonight, take care peeps!

Signing off~

'.... I've forgotten how it feels like, to like, or love a guy. What am I...?

2010-09-10T01:32:00.002+08:00

1+ liao, but I still haven sleep. Just thinking about home alone from fri to sun, but mainly especially the performance on sat makes me cmi.

Anyways! Went for work as usual hahaz. Am quite happy, got this aunt who is very good to everyone, gave an advance bday gift to me hahaz. To think she even rememeber my bday when I told her a month or two ago. I didn't know or expect her to buy anything, and especially when its only sept now! No matter what, I'm touched, its the thought that counts:D She gave me early cos she's not working during school holidays, and thought she won't be back next week mon and tues, though in the end she -is- coming back on next mon and tues hahaz. Thanks aunty keng:)

I forgot the music cd has dizi parts inside. Kept forgetting to ask teacher for the other cd. Maybe I can get it either tmw or sat hahaz. If not, I will have a dizi duet with the cd, lols!

But yep, practice awhile after work everyday since mon, guess the peeps nearby and in the cafe must have got zz at the loudness of the dizi, even when I'm practicing at the stairs behind closed doorsx.x The echos were just -that- loud. I can't believed I can't memorise the erhu and tuan bo yue parts of hua hao yue yuanx.x But yea, since dizi don't play those parts, other than that, I can memorise the dizi parts hahaz. Guess I'm skipping on ta ta er in the endx.x

But yep, keeping this post short as usual:) Blog next time, maybe after performance. Am stressed up:(

2010-09-09T00:04:00.002+08:00

Back to blog!

Didn't blog yesterday....cos I slept at 8pm when I'm supposed to be 'resting'!:( Was lying on the sofa lols. And the next thing, I'm asleep=.=;
Slept till 2am, till I went to the room, and roll on my bed till 3am before I finally slept. Lets see... I slept a total of 11 hours!x.x At least I'm wide awake during work today:D

Damn. My mind is gonna boomz. I'm dreading, and dreading, and more dreading, of this coming sat... Ergh... Is there anyone who can understand how I'm exactly feeling..?
I feel so sick in the mind now.. Thinking of the performance even while I'm typing.. It's affecting my mood greatly.. I didn't prepare and all.. guess I deserved it.. If die then die, if I don't tally with the cd then good luck to me. Haiz.. Is Singapore Arts Federation scary? cos the president will be attending this concert... Sigh..

Blah nvm.. the moment I thought of the performance I can't seem to type anything else.. Shall end here for today.. Damn, its making me stressed up...

Kelly Clarkson - Behind These Hazel Eyes

2010-09-06T02:24:00.000+08:00

This is similar to how I'm feeling now.
But anyways!
The song is nice.One of my fav singers:)
Enjoy!

2010-09-06T01:52:00.002+08:00

Suppose to sleep now! But anyways, a short post before I sleep?o.o

Last night I slept peacefully from 6am+, cos I have to sayang my boy to sleep. Thanks to the thunderstorms at 4+, his scared like mad, shivering non stop. Have to turn on my hp light for him to seek comfort, and sayang him as well till he can calm down and sleep. Like baby right?:D
In the end, I dozed off after sayanging him awhile, half body on the half side of the bed, while my legs are dangling outside the bed. 6+am mum woke me up and asked what am I doing sleeping in that position and with my hp light still on x.x At least, boy finally slept shiok on my left arm, same position when I was comforting him hahaz.

Woke up at 1+pm x.x So tired, my mind's blank. But still moody. In the end I literally surf youtube to find funny vids.

Wells, I seriously don't know the mood I am in now hahaz. Maybe moody, maybe at ease, maybe a mix of both. I just don't know. All I know is, I've let some stuff off my chest, felt abit lighter. But still heavy in a way.

ANYWAYS! Working as usual tmw, need to work cos 1: Ut3 this week, my guess is it will last as per usual school time due to different years having different timings for ut and 2: $. Hopefully its crowded this week. Literally died of boredom last weekx.x
4 days of work, hope things turn out smoothly:)
Besides that, 5 days countdown, stress. I still haven practice, deserve a slap man:/Cos I saw who else is performing besides me, and I felt that they are prox.x Haiz. Hope I can at least make a passable impressionx.x

Lotsa stuff on my mind, but not posting it here. I've posted too much for the past few posts hahaz. Best to leave this blog at least abit +ve:)

Sleeping time, hopefully, not like last nightx.x

Signing off~

2010-09-05T04:21:00.001+08:00

Blogging another post today, or tonight hahaz.
Time check: 3.41am.
Guess I just can't sleep eh, have to blog a post, then I can sleep.
Thats whats been happening for the past few days.
Latest I've slept is 5+ hahaz.
Just can't get over some stuffs.
Sorry to those peeps whom I've talk in a moody tone. Thats how I've been talking pretty much this few days.

Anyways. Supposed to be at home whole day as usual due to no money. But josh decided to pull me out of my shell during the evening. Was rushing like mad before I reach the place where I'm meeting up, and I reached just in time hahaz.
Met new peeps, especially zhang lang, hahaz. Can recognise him irl even when I've only seen his pic on fb.
Overall, I enjoyed the night, though I got bored during the beginning. The peeps are alright, was hoping they don't mind my last minute arrival, but overall, they don't mind, I think. Hahaz. Plus I'm the youngest among them haha. Felt puny. But when yang jun started drawing stuffs on paper to let us guess what he drew, the tension starts to drop. Thanks josh, for tempting me out lols, and pulling me out of my shell. Lets hope one day, this anti-social shell of mine is gone literally.

Less than 1 week left. I didn't practiced dizi at all. I hope I won't throw Ronald's face away. I've been deproving lately due to some matters. Easily distracted, and no mood. My feelings are totally, into the drain. Worst come to worst, practice the songs for next week at a corner on tues and wed.

I'm scared. I'm reluctant. I dread 11th sep to come.

Oh yea, in the end I can't buy anything from IT fair at all.
Surprise surprise, my bank is left with 200 bucks. I wonder what happen to the 100 bucks. I didn't withdraw any money. Sigh. Guess this 200 bucks of mine, will be gone in the mid of sep. Damnit. Stress. More moody. Guess it'll be a very long time till I can really be happy through getting what I wish and wanted.

But overall, its very difficult for me to smile within for some days.
Been crying, nearly every night. Stupid right?
Kept telling myself to be strong. But when a certain thing happens, its like all the air has been beaten out from me. Like I can't breathe, suffocating. The next thing I knew I broke down, badly. Of cos, whenever I broke down, I don't find anyone there for me. Alone and being lonely. Thats how I went back to my shell and build a barrier around me. But I'm glad, there are afew specific peeps, who can really make me cheer up without them knowing. Be it msning, smsing, face to face, or even fb. Just chatting with peeps who didn't know I'm depress or moody, them chatting happily, it really -does- brighten up my mood, be it a lil bit or alot.
Just like tonight. And yep, the golden retriever, Love, really brightens me up alot..:)
Even lately, I posted vids and all, being excited etc. But yet again, those are vids that tempo cheers me up. After awhile I'm back to the same moody me. Didn't want to bother any peeps or letting them know I'm moody, unless they are reading this blog hahaz.
I just don't wish to trouble them, to those who are really concerned about me. I don't want them to be affected(-ve) by my troubles. If they are happy, I want them to continue being happy, and not being dampen due to my problem. As usual, the main thing on my mind when stupid stuffs happens to me: hope that peeps around me won't get affected nor involved. Rather they be happy, and be oblivious. But yea, the moment if anyone started to find something amiss, and started asking me, -boom-, I ranted everything straight at them.
Thats how I am, accumulating everything -ve thing, even when its been filled to the brim. So filled that, it can explode through any questions or just by talking/ concerns.

When things are finally settled down, or when I've started to cheer up bit by bit as the day passes, I might start a new blog.
Been blogging for 3-4 years in this blog, the happy stuffs, the crazy stuffs, the sad stuffs, the depressing stuffs. All of them in this 478 posts of mine.
Seriously don't know whether I should leave the past times behind, and start a whole new chapter in a new blog.
Sigh. I don't know what to think anymore. Mind already exploding. Financial crisis.
And... I can still think about my sis's bday gift.. which I haven't even buy yet for her.. Don't know what she likes.. Really hoping to buy her a good gift, not cheap budget, before she comes back from Phuket, which is tmw.. 200 bucks for this month.. Haiz. Its pretty weird if I can break down even now over a birthday gift now right? Wells, I've been weird lately, so its normal for me. Have so many probs on myself now, but I can still worry about haven buying a gift for my sis yet.

Omg, another post with weird ramblings and random thinkings. And now all of them are -ve. Haiz. Guess its getting more worse in my life atm. Awaiting for the turning point..
Time check: 4.17am.
And yea, been sleeping till afternoon then I can wake up lately. Sometimes, I just don't find a reason to wake up at all. Sometimes, I wish I can continue to sleep. For Days. Besides my family, who else will know about it? None, I guess.

Time to sleep. Boy's scratching the board, cos theres thunderstorms now. His afraid of thunders hahaz. Nitez world. Thunderstorms are accompany gen to sleep. A great night for her current state of mind now.

2010-09-04T03:38:00.002+08:00

Back to blog! Though... nothing much today:/
Didn't go out at all today. The monster is here! RAWRrrrrr..........:(

Literally a potato couch, kept lazing about playing ps2 or using laptop.
I'm craving for kfc badly, but bird flu has come to visit the kfc in cwy, thus it's boarded up and so.... no kfc for me to dine or take-away:( NUUUUUUUU!!!

Anyways, its boarded up cos renovation has started>.>
But that means its gonna be some months before kfc is back! At least, the nearest to my house! Pshh.

I feel like playing kh2, for like, a straight 10 hours at my house tmw. Playing ps2 sure distracts me alot, especially emotion-wise. Stuffs always happen at night, but seldom in the morning or afternoon. And that results to why I'm still awake.

Time check: 3.45am.

Went to IT fair yesterday. So many things I want to buy, so many things I wish I can buy. But...

I don't feel rich at all this month. Only had.. 300 bucks. I still haven't bought any gifts for my sis, and shes coming back on sunday. Haiz. I wonder whether I can survive this month with less than 300 bucks, and I was even thinking of buying a hdd badly at IT fair for my laptopx.x Worse come to worse, I will only have 150 bucks which contains only transport and food for this month if I buy the hdd. Just by calculating, other than food and transport, I can't afford to buy anything else. But yea, even if its only food and transport, I still -won't- be able to survive for the whole month. Peeps always like to say 'fml' etc, but for me? Damn this life I have atm:(

Even if its just one night, the post below this, not saying which, I'm taking my words back.
Nuh-uh-nuh-uh-nuh-uh.

Baka gen, seriously.
Baka baka baka.
Should hit my head hard against the wall, get some amnesia or something.

Seriously need to stop myself from sleeping too late due to thinkings and etc.
Black rings now, sigh.
Hungry, kept thinking of kfc 2 piece chix and cheese fries. Oh noes.

Ergh, a sudden random of typings due to everything occuring at once. Stomach, thinkings, kh2, tired.

Am I having ADD or something?:(
Someone just kill me:( And its just a figure of speech!

My anti-socialness is increasing, if this keeps overpowering me, the few friends I have now will leave me sooner or later. Gen has 0 friends. Oh noess.

And damn, I should try -not- posting in the middle of the night. Don't know what random -ve stuff I will say next, just keep popping like popcorns!

Blahh, guess I'm weird too. Who agrees???

Off to sleep!

Signing off~

2010-09-02T02:03:00.002+08:00

Now's officially 2nd Sep!

And here to say.. HAPPY BDAY JIE!:D Glad to know you enjoyed and had a early party with your friends:)

Didn't buy gifts for you... yet! Cos still broke atmx.x
But oh wells... your going Phuket with Adam tmw till sun, so that means I can buy a gift for you!
Just that... what gift can I buy thats practical and can make you happy?x.x
4 more days till your back!

Had work as usual, even Claudia's come to visit me I think, bwahaha! More customers today, and when theres no customers I'm practically playing with Claudia hahaz. At least the boss is really happy about it o.o At least, I'm not bored at all today:D
Random things with Claudia: Played 'restaurant' with her, where shes the waitress, while I'm the chef, hahaz. Played catching and hide and seek together with Betty and Gerard whom Claudia successfully called them down o.o; Played rubberband shootingo.o; lols, am serving a customer when she use paper pellets and shoot towards my butt and ran away laughing cos I can't chase after her=.= She got -killed- in the end thanks to my pokings:D Revenge taken, bwahaha~ But yep, I'm using my work time to play, and thats cos the boss requested me to o.o Oh well, having fun at work is a good thing:D
Hm.. I wonder if I can teach primary school science. Boss ask me whether I can teach her daughter. I dunno, been a long time since I touched text books, I can only know if she let me see next week, if she doesn't mind.

One things for sure.... I confirmed chop need to exercise badly.. Didn't know my stamina is so damn effing lousy now:( Got tired after running while playing catching, and running down the stairs from the first floor to the long white corridor towards basement carpark with Claudia. The corridor's damn scary btw if your running alonex.x Back to swimming for me! My pastime exercise hahaz. First things first... buy swimming costume!x.x

Finished work, literally dozing off now and again while waiting for bus and on the way home. A total knocked out by the time I reached home: lying on the floor to rest, in the end I slept for 2 hours before I went to my parents bed, and slept for continuous 3 hoursx.x 10 pm when I woke up. Wonder what time I will be sleeping tonight. Yesh, a pig I am:(

Stuffs been happening recently, not alot, just afew stuffs hahaz.
Been listening to The Fray- Never Say Never and One Republic- Secrets continuously recently. Just listening to this song makes me think and relate about something. Mixed feelings. Am I doing the right thing? Can anyone tell me?
Am I being foolish? Or am I just pretending I'm just fine..?

I gonna rest tmw.. don't feel like working for these 2 days. I really need to sort things out in my insane mind.

I felt so messed up. Can you tell me?

Checked timing, its 3.33am, so coincidence. I'm gonna see myself as a happy gal again tmw evening. It's getting more and more difficult to show my inner feelings out when I meet peeps. Too emotional. Emotional me. Just hope I don't explode with my overwhelming inner feelings. Josh, I hope you don't see this post tmw morning or afternoon lolsx.x But yea, I know I'm anti-social even now, thats why people do avoid me. Guess its gonna be impossible for me to change that huh? Sigh. But, I'm glad, that you don't avoid me. Thanks:)

Time for me to sleep. Hope the weather will be cooling, I seriously need that.

Signing off.

Random: current feelings inbetween the 2 songs + lyrics above.

Some things, we don't talk about, when things aren't what they seems.
While your life's getting boring, all I can do, is to hold onto that unwavering smile.
You've started, falling in and out of love, sometimes leaving me with tear-stained sleeves.
I don't know whether I should be happy, or regret when we are together all this while.

From all the truth I've said, tell me, what do you really want to hear?
Sometimes, are actions in quarrels really more important than words?
We are pulling apart again and again, and at times, you don't seem to come back.
I'm hurt of the insinceres, but when all is crumbling on your side, I'll be there to steady your hand.

Time, time and time again, the problems we can solve but failed when quarrels arise.
We have got this far, but it always ended the moment you cry.
We have got this far, but it doesn't end whenever I do.
Holding onto threads, and all except one, flew.

Don't disappear in my life, even if haters jump in line,
I know, your love still grows, so don't let me go.
Solving in a different manner, things will be fine,
Both having patience, lets work together and go with the flow.

Time checked: 4.20am.
It takes half an hour for me under Random. Does it mean anything..?

2010-08-28T15:21:00.002+08:00

Yoz peeps!

Actually I have nothing much to talk about, just posting just cos I'm bored:/
Anyways, usual routine.
Can't sleep well, weather's killing me even when I'm at home.
And now.... I'm having damn hives on my right arm, now slowly spreading to my thighs.
First time I'm getting this thingys, sigh.
In return, I can't on the fan at all(mum says so). So while I'm sweating and itching, my laptop is heating up in process=.=

Didn't do much yesterday. Staring at laptop the whole day, and practiced dizi for the upcoming performance. Stress, cos I'm gonna be there alone and solo-ing.
Staring at laptop today as well, but think I'm gonna play Kingdom hearts 2. Rather my ps2 heat up than laptop:/
Thinking of a way to stop myself to itching. I don't want them hives to spread even further. Haiz.
Weak body I'm having since young.

Changed songs for my playlist. Been a long time since I've done that hahaz.

Bai peeps, next time post:D

2010-08-26T23:18:00.002+08:00

Yoz! I'm back to blog!:D

Didn't do much today, but lately I just can't seem to sleep well at all. And keep having dreams daily, weird ones also I think, but I can't remember them when the morning weather strikes me hard:(
Started having black rings around my eyes. Haiz. Don't know whats wrong with me lately. Just can't feel comfortable at all on my bed, or on my mattress, or on my parents bed. At least, comfortable enough for me to sleep peacefully without waking up at the slightest sound or heat or etc. Hope I can sleep comfortably tonight..

ANYWAYS! Didn't do much today.
Can't sleep as usual, had my eyes fully opened at 5+ and not that tired, fitful sleep till 9+, phailed attempt on parents bed, got out of bed at 12+, all this time just rolling about on bed. Pshh.

Slack at home as per usual, played Kingdom Hearts 2 on ps2, showered, had dinner, and had dinner -again- with a peep at JP macdonalds before going for a short walk, then going pco practice. Thanks for today!:D
And yesh, double dinners, thats how much I've been eating recently. Double portions:( Fattiness! But I can still eat=.=

Practice is pretty alright. Played 'White Night' and 'Smoke on the Water'. First time seeing the 'White Night' score though. Ended practice at 910pm or so, quite early in my view.

Other than that, here I am on my lappy, being distracted by msn while posting this hahaz.

Till the next time!

Signing off~

~;~;~;~;~;
How long until things started getting settled?
Cos its affecting me greatly now.
In a -ve way.
It's not me this time.
Its you.

2010-08-25T16:08:00.003+08:00

2 weeks later.. finally another blog post!-sweeps dust off blog with my typing-:D
And as usual, the paragraphs in the post are always very random.

Honestly, I can't remember what I've done for these past 2 weeks. Stml me:/
But I remembered going jb a number of times:D
Bought a pair of shoes and got a ps2 memory card at city square:)
Dined at some hong kong cafe: the food is nice! The drink? Big enough for two people to drink man=.=; But in the end I finish the tiramisu drink all by myself, bwahaha! Fatty me:(

Speaking about food, been eating a huge amount recentlyx.x;
I feel myself gaining weight more and more.
Remembering myself having TWO fish burgers continuous after boonlay's performance just makes me feel -erghhhh- x.x
And remembering myself having two portions of rice at home, together with eating off half of the vege and 8 spicy drumlets, zomgggg :(

Youtubing as usual whenever I'm at home, plus I went back watching anime:D
K-ON! surely gives me a deep impression, plus its damn hilarious in lots of unexpected scenes.
About this group of gal music players in their own band and having epic scenarios nearly all the tim:D
Those who like humor, comedy, lots of laughter etc, watch this!

Hm.. dunno what else has been happening lately, was being distracted by msn and virtual villagers 3 while thinking of what to post. I suck when comes to multitasking:(

Baby and chubby is still being their usual selves, baby still being fat, chubby still scared of any living thing=.=; I'm officially broke, can't buy bathing sands for them for awhile le, though I still have some bathing sand left:D

But yep, since I'm broke, I can't go out much at all, ezlink left 3 bucks. So have to stay at home like a good gal:/ Means ps2 and laptop for me:D Lazy gal more likely=.=;

Don't know whether I'm going pco tmw or not, have to check on my laziness level.
Worst come to worst, pigging at home one whole day and stare at laptop hahaz.

Oh yea, went to attend YOG table tennis with my mum at 10am, cos she got two free tix while shes at RC as usual. Was lost along the way cos we don't know how to get to indoor stadium:(
It's the beginning of the table tennis matches when we reached. I focused more of the 3 tables that were near my sight, and cheered for the sg peeps when they started competing with another country hahaz. Besides sg peeps, the other countries that caught my eye were Korean and Egypt. They played damn well as well, the ang moh students were cheering when Egypt competed with Africa hahaz. Stayed for some hours before we went back home after having our lunch:)

Was gonna have a shower before I go for co, cos I stink real bad, and was supposed to have 2 more hours to rest. Stuff happens, short temper got over me. Just totally give up on going co that day. Haiz. Need to control my temper, though it doesn't happen often.

Still can't get over Vocaloids LIVE. Literally amazed by what Japan can do when comes to technology. Can't wait to see what other technology they'll do next!

Applied for a science job at sgh, hope I got shortlisted-prays hard-x.x;

Through finding my certs at my room, I played with my harmonica:D At least I can play simple songs!:D

Hm.. think I stop here, don't know how messy I've posted above, but as usual, I'm lazy to check. >.>;

Till next time! Signing off~

2010-08-12T01:00:00.004+08:00

Been a week since I last posted!

I've noticed that I didn't play games and watch anime for.. at least one month when I on my lappy. Plus the number of times I've been getting on lappy is getting lesser. So not me:(

Can literally on my laptop, buffer an anime episode, and didn't watch it at all while I surf youtube or other sites. Missing on Fairy Tail, Naruto Shippuden, Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood(last episode out long ago):/

On weekdays, either I'm working, and going co/ meeting pig afterthat, or I went home straight after work, took a nap/ play kingdom hearts 2.
Weekends theres always bound to be something on, but those were the days which I'm going online, at least, one of those 2 daysx.x

Been back to reading library books recently. Loving to read and imagine/visualise the scenarios hahaz.
Still addicted to Declan's 'Ego You', kept repeating that song over and over again, psshhh.

ANYWAYS!
Watched Salt and Precious during National Day eve at Cine. Salt- HIGHLY recommended:D Loving the actions and unexpected scenes! Seems that theres gonna be a part 2 for this movie, a must-watch though!
Precious is based on a true story. Its very nice, touching, and sad as well. Also recommended:)
Had dinner inbetween movies at Xin Wang:)
Took a pic of my dish cos I find it hilarious to see that mini 'flag'(pork) on top, bwahaha~

My fav cheese baked rice! Omnomnomnom:D

Gaining weight, but I'm gonna try keep it before 55kg:( 50kg is enough!

Anyways, pig stayed over since mon is National Day, and we spent the whole day slacking and resting at home, and watching the NDP on tv in the evening.
Disappointment:( Of all songs, 'I got a feeling' is being played, over and over again in the beginning, and even when the MPs started coming in! Pig even said theres one MP sleeping during the song, oops to the cameraman who was filming that particular area hahaz.
Pig slept during the song, and I was half asleep, and decided to use fb to keep me awake>.>;
But yep, lip-syncing much through the songs? If anyone realises that.
Performances are nice though:D

Thought there will be lesser peeps coming to dine in during Tues, since Mon is hols. Thought they will self-declare tues hols too:( In the end, and endless queue of peeps, with only a 10 min rest inbetween for all of us to rest and have a drink when the crowd finally poofs, and back to the same thing as the crowd arrived afterthatx.x Damn shagged when I finished my work, and having CO afterthat.

Today ain't crowded at all:D Totally slacking like a pig, having at least 1-2 hours here and there doing nothing and chatting o.o The kitchen was chaotic though, since they are packing food for 1.5k peeps. But they managed to do it before the required time:)
After that, all of us turn by turn rushed to get free coke zeros and regular coke due to yog performances! Bwahaha~ But yep, imagine, we are so free, we can even go out of the cafe to take the drinks:D
Hoping tmw will be as slack as today. I holiday mood liao:D Just want a break, and sleep in more!

Was bored the other day when I was on fb, and created a formspring acc out of boredom.
To those who are curious or just want disturb, mine is formspring.me/genetai hahaz. Same old same old user name.

Woah, so long post! Gotta stopped here. Or I can turned it into a long essay hahaz.
Jy for tmw!
Nitez peeps:D

THE pig signing off~
(As usual, what I posted above are always in random order or so, odd me:D)

Thinking of rings, much?

2010-08-03T00:36:00.002+08:00

Another week has passed, and a week since I last touched my lappyo.o

Focusing on work, hamhams, pig, food and lately, my ps2 game... again:D

Fan as always, Kingdom Hearts 2:) The game keeps loading kinda long inbetween cutscenes since the cd is -cough- privated, but the playing wise is alright, just needa wait, wait, and wait for every single new area:(

Can't remember much of what happen lately as usual. But I know, school holidays are coming, I can finally take a mini break off work:D
Going jb probably next week to find a software with pig.
Before that, 7th aug got performance at pco:) And maybe going to suntec on sun to see some exhibition.

Watched Sorcerer's Apprentice even though rating at GV is 3 stars. After I watched the movie, I just don't know why its 3 stars though:/ Jay Baruchel(do you know his the lead voice of 'Hiccup' in 'How to train your dragon'?) is hilarious, Nicholas Cage is awesome as always, some parts of the movie looks so -wrong-! The storyline is abit rushed, but other than that, liking the special effects, the action, overall the shows great:) Recommended!

Oh ya, baby is getting more chubbier than chubby now! I was laughing and being shocked at the same time the moment I picked him up with my fingers o.o Instead of feeling that thin more-to-bone body, I literally felt flesh and fats(high chance), no bone feeling and all. Zomg the fattiness in just a week!
Now he has two names:D Baby and fatso, bwahaha!
Whereas, chubby has been running in the ballwheel non-stop this few days even when I can see the chubby side of him. Guessed muscles replaced his fats thats why he still stays that chubby. Muscle mouse:D

Am getting a new wheel for baby once I got my pay:) Pig's one ain't good enough for himx.x

Speaking of which, I can't wait for October to come! Hopefully things turn out well and smooth. Not just looking forward to the lock and key, but to what comes -after- that:)
Bwahaha secret!:X

Tmw's practice as usual, I really hope I can improve even if just abitx.x

It's getting late, lalaland time!

Signing off~

~;~;~;~;~;~;

Loving coffee club food much, especially caesar salad!:D
Eating more and more thanks to you hahaz.
You just want me to be chubby like chubby isn't it!:(
Thanks for the earphone:D Yours white, mine black, bwahaha~

1 month more to go for -this-, and 2 months more to go for that-:)
But 3 months later......:(

Smooth nowadays, hope this goes on!

P.S. Strawberry passion soda pretty please with cherry and sugar and anything sweet on top?:D

2010-07-26T21:09:00.002+08:00

Had fun in zoo and watching Nodame at JP!:D
Thanks to the weather(cloudy but sunny afterwards), we are able to travel to almost every single place in the zoo! Had my first time taking that boat ride from one end to the other end too, nice scenery, and windy, shiok:)
Loving the otters, polar bear, seals. Well, everything:D especially that two monkeys who posed on those cables above the pathway for peeps to take pics at!! Damn cute man!! Seriously dunno how long they have been posing, cos they have started posing even before we notice/reach that area! Another epic one:BABOONS:D we went to see them due to their beautiful pink butts! bwahahaha~ Reminds me of the cartoon, 'i r baboon!':P The babies are sooo cute!
Loving the animal shows as well, the seal is damn amazing! Giving a kiss to a boy, and two kisses for girls! hahaz:P And theres one show where the elephant takes a dump in those ponds when it walks towards land, literally can see balls of paradise dropping in them! bwahahaha!! As if one dump ain't enough, another elephant started dumping on land once the show is about to finish! EPIC!:D

Been 6+ when we started to call it a day from the zoo, and due to overcrowding peeps waiting for the bus, we took the cab to JP instead. Peak hour = money fly:(
Had dinner at LaiLai before rushing off to watch Nodame.
Though I missed the first Nodame movie, I'm still able to understand what the show is about, since I did watched some parts of the live Nodame episodes:D Damn hilarious movie, and touching parts as well:) A must-watch!

Head home afterwards, with pig staying overnight at my house:)

Had a slack day on sun, sleeping in late, doing our own stuffs, before we head to cwy to watch two movies in a go from 6+pm onwards: hot tub and inception:)

Tried the single combo with the potato twist( a Must-have!) and additional nuggets for the first movie. Afterthat head off for a mini kfc drumlets meal- pig has to finish off 4 drumlets instead of 3 cos I died after eating two of those damn spicy drumlets:( Oops extra fats for you?>.>; Rush back to the cathay counter to buy two magnum ice creams to savour while watching inception:) Another must-watch movie, 4 and and half stars! Intriguing and fantastic:)
P.S. the ice cream is damn nice! try it at least once!:D

Overall, I feel like I've gained 1 kg or 2 since sat:( Too much food! One big universe(copied and pasted from zoom):D

My body is crying for a walk for sitting two movies in a go(excluding the walk to kfc and back):( But yep, there goes sunday.
Reached home at 12+, and tried to sleep.

But...

Skipped work today:(
Had a sudden case of itchiness from nowhere, resulting in me unable to sleep at all and scratch myself like mad the whole nightx.x Dead tired when alarm finally strikes at 630/730amx.x
Smsed pauline that I can't go, high chance shes mad at my last min sms, cos she didn't reply mex.x But better than me nodding my head off or work like a dead zombie todayx.x
Since both my parents aren't home since 7am, crept to my mum's bed and slept hahaz.
Finally able to sleep well after awhile, and woke up to the time of 1+pm=.= 6 hours of sleep is better than nth hahaz.
Got my day -off- and slack, and having my personal free time since afew weeks ago.

Hamsters are still fine, one still love to bite my finger though:( Literally makes a grab for my finger the moment my hand enters the cage. Okayokay your territory, I don't enter:(

Gonna stop this post now, need to bring boy down for a walk hahaz.
Till then, take cares to those out there, baibai:)

Random~
Why isit that when we don't quarrel, you have your smokes with you
And when we quarrel, so qiao you finished your smokes and went to buy another:(
Damnnn try lessen the smokes!!
Waiting for the time, when we quarrel, I don't see any smokes lurking from you, or even the SMELL! hmmmf!:(
Shoo smokes, pig doesn't need them!
-THE- pig wants you healthy!!:(
Rather you eat more sweets than smoke, though both are unhealthy:D

2010-07-24T00:58:00.004+08:00

Been a long time since I last post! And not gonna make this a long post as well, since my stml runs like mad:(
Edited: I've made a long post in the end>.>;

Hm.. nowadays been working 5 days per week without taking any off days, still can't get used to it, since I can literally doze off while waiting for bus to go home after workx.x Seldom use laptop for this past few weeks due to working + too tired to even online hahaz.

Gained 0.6kg liao, thanks to the continuous yummy food at the cafex.x Collegues even commented that I eat alot, but I'm not fat. I replied them, my tummy is lean, but not for my thighs, cos the fats are going there instead of the tummy:( Thanks to abit of baggy jeans and my berms, its not noticeable:D

Of cos, probs -do- still arise in one way or another 24/7, but hopefully they will be solved soon:)

I know my fashion sense is very poor, but I still -try- to make an effort, even if its very slowx.x Started wearing small shirts or something along that line. Started wearing something shorter than berms at times. Hairstyle? Still a mess, hopefully I fix my hair up soonx.x Next will be footwear and contacts, hopefully:)

Currently have 2 hamsters at my house: san pat's, and another. But I'm returning the other hamster back soon, since it's only staying at my house for awhile, like a mini vacation o.o;
But san pat's one is staying for long term, hope I can take good care of him:) His name is Chubby, so cute!:D Didn't take a picture of him, cos whenever I take the cage out, his always running in the ball:( But I managed to take a vid of cookie being literally -glued- to the cages:D Should be uploading in fb soon or later to those who are bored or just interestedo.o; It's 6 mins long!>.>;
Edited: ew, fb can't accept mp4?:( nvm, will show ah pig this vid tmw:D

Thinking of having pauline's all 4 hamsters instead of 2 once they stop drinking milkx.x cos it seems cruel to separate the siblings apart, but am I able to take care of all 4 at once? Will pauline find it alright to let me have the babies? Time will tell:) If I'm able to have them, maybe I should name them eeny meenie miney moe:D bwahaha random~

Anyways! Going to zoo in 11 hours time! Watching Nodame Cantabile(aka NB from pig) after that:) Been a long time since I've been there, can't wait to see the changes within!:D
Most of all, hope the weather stays fine, though for the past few days its been rather gloomy so farx.x
But mainly, what counts is everyone is happy at the end of the day:)

Currently listening to Declan Galbraith and The Fray's songs, still like them no matter what!

Alrights, time for bed, hope the red monster doesn't attack me tmw:( man zoom, your prediction is wrong for sure this time, bwahaha~:P

Till then, nitez peeps!

-THE- pig signing off~:D

Random:
Earworm towards Ego You by Declan Galbraith:D
Putting that song on my top playlist atm. Ignore the karoke part at the end for those who are interested in the song:D

2010-07-06T01:23:00.003+08:00

Still mon in my lil mind, though its gonna state tues hahaz:D

Can't sleep, though I'm sleepy, my eyes are heavy, my mind is gonna lalaland anytimex.x

Been watching movie for 3 continuous days man!
Money officially bb:(

Now awaiting for money to enter the bank, kaching!:D

Lately I'm still feeling damn tired and sleepy, hope its just a psychological prob:/

Been chatting with Rai, thanks for the advices!:D (I know you won't be able to see this, but wellllls)
To choose what I really want to be in life eh? Its easie to say than done, but I'm gonna try! Eh no, I'm gonna choose this way!:)

Working tmw as usual, till 4pmx.x Hope I can survive the whole day including CO! Didn't practice lately, busybusybusy, didn't even on com for 2 whole days, erghx.x

Having a random tummyache now, hope nothing happens tmw:)

Random~
Read your blog, and just wanna say, don't think so much, don't think so far.
Yi bu yi bu lai.
The time will come when you will know what to decide and all.
Don't push it.
Don't let this affect your moods 24/7, its not worth it, especially when its you-know-who.
No matter what, I'm the one that trigger you to think even more, very sorryx.x
Don't wanna say names, but hope you know I'm referring to you.
For now, be positive k? Maybe things will turn out fine sooner or later:)

Another random~
Stuff has been going on so peacefully for days.
I feel so -myself-, I feel happy talking to you and totally being myself:D
Am looking forward to eating with san pat, and the zoo outing as well when I'm free:)
But yea, san pat does say random stuff at times o.o; Don'tcha agree?
If days like lately goes on so peacefully, I'm contented:)

2010-07-03T23:00:00.004+08:00

Long time no post!:D

Been busy working lately, and feeling damn sleepy every evening:(

This week:
Went city square johor to watch movie, bought a shirt, bought wenshan bday present hahaz, glad she likes it:D

Having work as per usual, attending CO practices straight after that.

Went amk hub today to buy bird nest and essense for ma bday and pa advance bday hahaz, watch movie as well, and bought 2 shorts:D

Went back cwy, and had dinner with my parents to celebrate my ma bday at jack's place.
Took afew pics of my parents whos just sitting opp me:D

Ma was suppose to be happy, but didn't know when I take candid pic, her face so qiao is z o.o;

I dunno what my pa doing, hahaha!!

My ma was laughing earlier due to something, then she saw me taking a pic, she got shock, then her face = laugh+shock:D

Pa decided to try take a candid pic of me , phailed!:D

Lovebirds taking a pic of themselves:P

Tmw, NEA course, oh noes! It's 8.5 hours long!! I'm afraid that I might not catch knight and day in time, or just in timex.x
Haiz sorry sorry, damn the duration of the course:(

2010-06-27T14:36:00.002+08:00

Practicing in progress.. not doing well:(
But I'm not gonna give up:D
Jy!

And jy zoom for his blackbelt! It's over 9000!:D

Hoping for rain, I need a nap badly, but the current weather isn't helping:(

Hoping your safe, awaiting for your sms:)

Alrighttt! Back to practice:D

2010-06-26T02:09:00.003+08:00

It's been raining pretty heavily this few days, heard that cars got hit by fallen trees etc, hope everyone will be safe!:)

Weather shiok, late for work by an hourx.x Compensate that hour, had my meal, and went to watch woon fung's strings ensemble performance and reel room:D
Didn't stay for long cos something crop up, but canon in D and the pizz is nice:D Jy for reflections k?:)

Went home straight after that, and playing game etc as usualx.x Quite tired, getting more lazier by every second:(

Started to practice dizi now and then, don't care what my neighbours feel le.

Gonna go sleep liao, hope tmw the weather same as this morning:D

Signing off~

Random~
Stuffs happen last night.
It's not a bad thing, dunno if it will be a good thing. But if things turn out well, lets hope it stays a good thing forever k?:)
Let's finally.. work hard together:)
I don't wish the same thing to happen like before.. If it happens again, I won't give in le.. k? Let's hope it doesn't happen at all:)

2010-06-22T01:24:00.002+08:00

Things have been going silent and quiet for the past few days, maybe thats what I need atm.

Cooldown.

I need to make my thinkings slow down, alot. Before I can stop, and think on other stuffs.

The outings really help to take my mind off stuff alot. But I really find myself different from typical gals in alot of ways. And yea, finding myself able to click with guys better. Good or bad?x.x

Am sleepy still, and having work as usual tmw.
I wonder whats the cause of me being so sleepy.
Decided to skip co tmw too.
Hmm.. diy laptop stand really sounds damn interesting and cool:D

Been eating alotalot recently, whats gone over me man:(
I can feel the fats building up in my tummy and thighs, oh noes!
Will there be someone out there who can motivate me to at least go for a swim per week?x.x

Having a few earworms:D Declan's songs are one of the few:D

Haven watch karate kid:/ Toy story 3:/ I didn't watch movies for so long, haiz. I missed shrek 3, the worst.

Above are all random:D I type what my mind is thinking at that exact moment:D

Alright, 2am, off to sleep. Gonna be super tired tmwx.x

To those who are in their sad, down, depress periods, you have friends around you, try to cheer up whenever possible.
Cos, your not alone. Your friends will be concerned, worried, their moods might get affected. Don't push them away, they are the ones who will help you through in your life.
Sometimes, a simple and sincere 'thank you', means alot to them, show them you mean it:)

[KH] Light Up

2010-06-21T00:45:00.000+08:00

A recently earworm I've been having hahaz.
Listening/watching this when I'm bored etcx.x
Those who's a fan of Kingdom hearts, enjoy this music video, its pro:D

On another hand,
Had outing with zoom some days back, met some new peeps, though I don't find myself having the same interest as his friendsx.x Time will tell:)

Went sister's island for stargazing with teck lim, zoom and friends:D
The sky fortunately, is damn clear for the whole night, more and more stars appearing!
I'm still a nub at stargazing, so far only can see scorpio and having some trouble seeing 'teacup'. The rest can see more than that:(
I saw jupiter and a faint glimpse of milky way:D
There's a group with us who brought telescopes. First time I see stars through those, nice experience:D And I got totally ??? with the group leader who uses numbers to name the different stars, he damn pro x.x;
Went for a night walk with the peeps, and as usual, I can't see anything unless theres torchlightx.x but yea, saw army ration(o.o;;) and afew stuff along the way. Nearly got lost when we try to find our way back out from the trees lols. Too many trees/bushes, and we didn't leave any breadcrumbs as a trail back home-snore-
Eat/drink alot, plus playing uno with the peeps till 5+am before we finally manage to catch an hour's nap before we started to pack our stuff.
I just simply love the sight of sunrise, and the patterns/colours in the clouds:)
Saw monkeys on the way back to the boat too:D
Literally slept on the way home in mrt, and continue sleeping the moment I reach home + dozing off in front of com every few mins or so till I gave up and took a napx.x Didn't know just one night out can make me -that- sleepyx.x
Lazy to upload pics, its late, I'm sleepy, but don't wanna sleep yet:/

But yep, I'm enjoying it, and don't mind going for another trip like this, hopefully I know abit more on differentiating the constellations and planets:D

Working in afew more hours, oh noesss!:(

[MMV] My World

2010-06-16T00:55:00.000+08:00

Lately I'm quite interested in music videos that synchronises with any song lyrics:D
Well, since I do have a kiddy mind, I prefer games, anime, or anything that says -animation-:P
I don't play maple, but the person who did this is pro:D
Hope you guys enjoyed it!
Might upload afew more time and again hahaz!
Zomg:( This song, is definitely a earworm! Oopsx.x

2010-06-11T23:14:00.002+08:00

Still in the dark period:/

Didn't sleep well the past few days, stuff happens again hahaz.

Took a day off work yesterday, and another day off today to take the typhoid injectionx.x
I literally forgot the injection will have a bruise around the area, like muscle cramp haha!

But yep, slacking at home otherwise, very bored. Random chatting with peeps, and trying to sleep early and sleeping in the next day before next mon.
Its gonna be very fierce in work cos school's starting:(

Nothing much to blog, just that same probs arising. I seriously just wanna get away from the probs, for once, instead of confronting.

2010-06-07T21:39:00.002+08:00

Bad post today. Don't read unless you want kpo.

Had a horrible nightmare last night, resulting in me not going to work. Been too tired, mentally and physically.
Cooldown period kay. Guess 2 days ain't enough for you, or you just don't realise thats cooldown period.
You can talk as if nothing happen last night, but I'm being affected by it. Alot.
Its not the harsh words. It's the -actions- that came right after. It's the threatenings and orders that came right after. Where's the apology when I don't see a single -sorry-?
All these happen between 1am to 2+am. My sleep poof straight after all this. Poof so much I didn't go for work.
It's not about me not forgiving you. Its about me last night saying the same thing you said today, and I got rejected on the spot and got the actions received. So, why did I got rejected when today you said the exact same thing which I said last night?
What you sms today doesn't mean that nothing has happen last night.
I will repeat, I'm being affected -alot-. Its between you and me, don't involve my family. True, I don't answer calls in the -middle of the night-. I don't mind smsing, but not calls. But over 30 spams? Ergh.

Another thing.
Just received a call. I was shocked. I was speechless. And yes, I teared. The cause is as if something in my heart trigger when I heard the news.

You will be fine.. you hear? Believe in yourself, believe that it will be gone.. you will be fine before 2 months are up. You will be able to pass through operation successfully.. Don't keep thinking negatively.. Look up and no matter what, stay cheerful, think happy stuff.. I'm there for you when you need me:)
But no matter what, stay strong wil, don't give up! You can pull through this!

I thought alot of things.. why is everything just so..confusing? Even earlier through the phone call.. Can anyone assure me..? Clear my doubts..?
Mind was thinking of just one thing before, now I'm thinking another thing..
Nvm, I'm thinking lots of things. Ergh.

2010-06-06T00:21:00.002+08:00

Sat>Sun

So tired lately, dozed off literally while looking at com yesterday lols!
Gonna celebrate Joycelyn's 21st bday tmw evening, still thinking what gifts to get during noonx.x
But yea, lazy as usual, I can get it today, but instead I'm slacking at home, reading books and comic and using lappy.

Hm.. had work as usual on fri, played with the boss's daughter and niece awhile after that. Man, they are damn active! Makes me realise how old I am:( But gotta go after play a couple of games, and they literally say noooo I must stay hahazx.x But yep, after that met up with woonfung to acc her look for jobs at np. Thought theres a music store, but.......x.x Damn ps hahaz, but hopefully the outlet we went to accepts her! Cos they sound keen, and hopefully they stayed keen:D

As usual, thoughts in my head. Cooling things off don't seem an option. Both of us, need cool downs, period. If impatience invades, I can't say or do anything.

And to another peep, I'm here ya? Don't be depress cos of her le. I know you wish to be alone through the crucial period, and not telling your family and close ones about it, but its affecting everybody including me..
I'm gonna try my best to cheer you up no matter what!:)
Look on the bright side, dont dwell on it le.
You have me being there as long as you need:)

2010-06-02T01:45:00.002+08:00

Theres so many things on my mind lately.
Thoughts? Lotsa them.
Saying them out? Afew, but I felt guilty after I said it to them.
And another thinking, does it change anything?
If it really changes anything, on a positive note, I will do anything just to achieve it.

Atm, lots of probs, needa settle them one by one. Afew settled.
Took a day off work, and in the end didn't went CO too hahaz.
Also no one ask me today whether I'm goingo.0;

Am so sleepy hahaz, slept at 4+ last nightx.x
Hm.. went back reinstalling Darkages, thank goodness char didn't got purgedx.x and then I suddenly remember about my lil ones=.=; If any of them poof, there goes my stuff, some valuable to me:(

Hm... just wanna say to this person, don't know whether he might read this blog, since he told me he didn't see for a long time. But yep, I regret the way I treat you when I'm 18. Experiences made me realise and understand, how you exactly felt that time. Am guilty, and angry at myself. I hope that even if its short term, it can be cherished. Mainly, be happy and not having problems:)

Work again tmw, oh noesss, weekends are booked as well! I need a day of rest...gaming?x.x oh noesss, I seriously need to kick the lazy habit to the bin!

Random!
~
*i spam u, u spam me
we are happy spam buddy!
with a big slash slash
and a chop from me to you
wont u say u'll spam me too? =p

The one above is from wtfBOOOM! no names being said:D bwahaha!
Including this after I told him:
'i spaamuuuuuuuuuuuuuu'

Yes I'm being spammed:( damn iguana!! blender~~~
~

And just felt like leaving parts of 2 song lyrics+afew extra words down here:D
~
Time is going by so much faster
I started to regret not telling all of this to you
till now
~
All the questions that I've been asking in my head suddenly
Are you the one I should really trust?
Waiting, and thinking,
Is this all.. wrong?
~

2010-05-30T15:05:00.002+08:00

Time to clean up the dust in my blog once a while hahaz.

Must have been a month since I blog, but yep, lots of stuffs happen since then.
Can't remember much as per usual:/

Anyways! Been attending practices nowadays, and having my work as well. Still lazy to find full time, oh noes.

Later going watch concert, but now having stuffs to do and email before I can leave the house.

Shiok weather today, I'm feeling damn sleepy:( and just thinking about working tmw makes me want to sleep even more:/

Been playing ROSE online for the past few weeks, if anyone is playing that, tell meh:D
Lvl 147 scout, up for hunts anytime hahaz.

Alright, back to do assignments! I try to blog once in a while:)

Hmm, a meet up with wil on sat most probably, celebrating relative 21st bday on sun. Summer theme? What the toot clothings should I wear?O.O
Marmaduke sneak preview on wed, am I able to go..?
Attempting circulative breathing for the past few days, cos I find it intriguing and fun:D but so far not doing well, jy!

Wonder when there will be the four-some meetup besides just wil hahaz. Oh well, guys are busy in ns:/

Till then, laterzz!

Greyson Chance Singing Paparazzi

2010-05-15T21:14:00.000+08:00

A kid getting popular every min just through this song he sang.
Very nice and doesn't sound like a girl at all:D
Hope you all enjoy his singing!
P.S. He's only 12-13 if I'm not wrong o.o

2010-04-27T01:46:00.002+08:00

Been one week since I posted hahaz.
Resting at home, totally feeling that I'm wasting my life away through these few days, cos I can't go out, go anywhere, thanks to the wound and my flu/fever/cough that came right after the wound etc hahaz.
Flu/fever/cough got better, went out on sat, that is to Steph's bday party, trying to walk properly or take stuff normally etc, don't want peeps to see that something's wrong with me hahaz. -Sick- is an understatement, but yep, restrictions to the food I'm eating like chix and seafood, though in the end I kope one of eachx.x In the end have to tell wenshan when she cross my left arm with hers, cos ps, it hurtsx.x.

Can't go SCH on tues and wed due to the same reason, same as skipping last week's performance.
Oh ya, I'm not avoiding ppl or something or anything cos it doesn't solve probs at all, its just a sign of being ______(input own word), thats how I feel. But yep, each single peep has his or her own views.
But yep, afew words here and there.
Member?
Updates?
Cock-ups?
Overall? Snore.

I'm depressed lately. Weather, hot and cold, body cmi. I can't work, financial cmi. Staying at home whole day, reading book, use laptop, ps2, cmi. Go out watch movie, body cmi. Can't sleep well for a week, body aching+cmi hahaz. So many cmi. I can't even smile or laugh, omg.
For now, pardon my moods, will be alright soon. Sorry if I've offended or disappointed anyone for the time being.

But yep, psychoing myself, I will recover fully soon, can be myself again, jump about like a mad kid hahaz.

SYF, silver! From cop to silver, thats a damn big improvement hahaz. Hope they got gold for next syf:)
Movies.. date night and single man. Date night is funny hahaz, as long comedy, its my fav:) Single man alright alright, I can't watch de, but heng I know the usher, so I got let in:D One thing's for sure, I don't see anything that says R21>.>;

Felt happy when boss msg with with concerns hahaz. Hope I can go back work soon:)

Hope got meetup during May, waiting for his msg hahaz. Long time no see this few peeps.

I need a tan:( I've got damn pale skin man, as if I'm very sick. Haiz. Need to wait 3 months if I ever want to go tan. So long, counting down the days.

I've miss lots of practices, cos I know I can't take it if I practice dizi too long, can break down in this current condition hahaz. Sounds so weak:( Guess I need to take more vits beside vit Cx.x

But yep, will end here for today. Its like, going to be 3am, but I can't sleep, been like this since last sun. Haiz. Hope I can sleep well in time:)

Signing off~

~
Extraction from bad apple:(editted in some parts)

I don't know about my surroundings,
I am me, and that's all that is to it.

Am I dreaming? Am I seeing nothing?
Isit a waste for me to say out anything?
If someone can change, am I able turn it white instead of black?
~

Hm, Should I stop caring for others, and focus all on myself?

2010-04-20T23:26:00.002+08:00

Not able to play long hours for games compared to before, but just wanna list down to remind myself!

From march:
KH RE:COM completed less than 24 hours!
KH RE: Reverse/Rebirth half completed!
FFX international: Replayed! Totally forgot the storyline:(
Harvest Moon, A Wonderful Life: Finishing year 1!

Currently focusing:
FFX! Gonna take some time to defeat Sin again:/ Messed up on sphere grids when I'm a kiddo, now gonna restart all over again.

Games not yet touched or wanna complete:
KH 2
Harvest moon virtual something something o.o
Old ps1 rpg games
Any other rpg games except FFX-2:D

Consequences since march:
One spoilt tv
Gain a smaller tv:(
One analog spoilt controller- dunno how I spoil it during KH RE:COM:(
Gain another spare analog controller! 2 more spares left:D
One spoilt fan, but fixed back, gonna spoil soon again:(
Only 1 8mb memory card, filling up fast, and 4 ps1 memory cards, 3 spoilt cos didn't touch for donkey years:(

2010-04-20T14:57:00.002+08:00

Back! Resting at home to recuperate hahaz, can't go out much.
Just thinking of yesterday, just going in and out of the toilet make me nearly passed out=.=;
So yep, can't move much, using laptop etc and all just using fingers hahaz!

Didn't go to support the kids today for their syf, cos don't know what will happen to me if I travel long distance. Haiz. But hope the dizi kids did well and didn't panic when I'm not around hahaz. Sorry and hope you get good results!

Can't go for rehearsal today as well. Though I'm damn surprised that I only know about the rehearsal last night, but didn't reply back cos I'm resting and can't move much. Would be even more surprised if the commitee know about the rehearsal at least afew days ago. Hahaz.

Ps jason, in the end can't go syf with him. Hopefully I'm alright enough to go for tmw's. Still not good today.

Throat atm dead thanks to the tube, but healing!

Bad Apple!! (HQ, Download, English subtitles)

2010-04-17T23:05:00.000+08:00

Had seen+fav this vid some time back, cos I love the animation and the song! As time passes, I forgot about this vidx.x but thanks to zoom for sharing the link and reminding me of this vid -including english lyrics-, I remember and love it again hahaz! Arigato!

To those who are interested in (smooth? not sure the actual word) animation and song etc, enjoy watching this vid:)

2010-04-16T00:47:00.002+08:00

Gonna off com in 5 mins, so gonna say out one sentence which I've been thinking nonstop this whole day.

'3 more days, pray pray pray that it went smoothly, VERY smoothly' hahaz.

Thank you xiexie arigato again, shhh don't want say names out, hahaz! You know who you are:)

Nitez peeps!

Signing off~

2010-04-12T20:30:00.004+08:00

Back to blog abit hahaz.

Wells, can't remember much of the past few days, but theres some happenings lately.
Saw jason yesterday at suntec while going out with 2 of my friends hahaz.
Had sakae sushi and watch clash of the titans, quite nice overall:)

3 more days to another appointment, haiz. Money flew again.

Random: I've finally, said my points and views all at once in a night. Its up to you, whether you want to talk to me ever again. No matter what you decided, I wanna say, I'm still waiting patiently for you. Its not what I say, or what I thought that counts. Its the heart, that matters the most.

-;-;-;-
There is sleep, between part and meet,
Where we meet with the usual words on the usual street.

In a world without you,
Comes the time when I will dream of you.

So when I wake up,
Let us meet again, with the usual words on the usual street.

2010-04-08T00:54:00.004+08:00

When searching for another way to be mature hahaz. At least, a way to be a young adulto.o Guess I'm being bo liao-snore-.

For those who are interested, enjoy:)

Take responsibility for your actions. If you mess up, don't lie about it or pass on the blame to someone else. Admit your mistake, apologise, and ask what you can do to correct the situation and/or make things right. Remember what happened so you don't make the same mistake again.

Get a job or work towards getting one (Education). Have a plan so your parents don't support you indefinitely.

When you get a job, be grateful for it. Work hard, follow the rules of the company as best as you can. Don't whine or complain about your duties, treatment and pay.

Accept the fact that most adults actually might know what they are talking about, and you can even learn something from the ones who don't.

Make friends with responsible adults who are older than you. Ask for their advice on things, and listen to the advice you were given.

Know that you cannot control other people so try not to think too much or care about what others think about you.

You can still be an adult without having to be serious all the time, don't forget that you can still have some fun, you just have to know where to draw the line.

Don't intentionally provoke arguments, or try to show off how much you know. Humility and kindness are two of the biggest benchmarks of maturity.

The more you act your age the more difficult it is to have a simple mind. Being over 18 does not make you an adult. You still need to be open-minded and consious about your decisions.

Okay, I'm tired, tmw still got work, feeling stressed.. one more week left to go for the appointment.. Money stress, money minded. Sigh..

P.S I have a childlike behavior, but can't it be accepted..? Childlike doesn't mean I'm childish.. Sigh..

2010-04-07T01:48:00.002+08:00

Somethings wrong with mixpod:( Thanks to google taking over youtube, crap happens:(

Working as usual, then went for CO afterwards hahaz. Played diff instruments instead of practicing my main=.=; I felt free and happy hahaz, when Ronald isn't there to stop me from play liuqin etc. Loving it.

Having lesson tmw, not sure whether going for CO or not, preview has been cancelled, only today then know haha.

Hmm.. nothing much to say, been listening to songs from itunes and youtube the moment I reached home.
Wah, going 2am soon, alright! Time to lalaland, next time!

Signing off~

2010-04-04T22:57:00.004+08:00

Woo, am quite happy today haha. Thanks to the weather I can finally sleep in!
But one good thing happens, a bad thing comes next right?
Played my ps2 for 5 mins, and the tv went 'pop'. :(
Carried the stuff to my sis's room to play, but stopped after half an hour later. Don't feel comfortable playing in her room, oh noes. x.x

Hm.. I still find myself very childish. Not sure is mentally or emotionally or what. Went to google hahaz, and found this site about being emotionally mature. Childish of me to google mature, but oh wellss, letting you all read and gain new knowledge about this ba!

Does every little thing set you off? When people are rude to you, do you dwell on it and think of ways to get back at them? Do your family and friends have to walk on eggshells around you, for fear of offending you? Don't take life so seriously. Take it easy. Learn to smile and give people a break. Become emotionally mature.

Step 1: Avoid getting easily offended. Immature, selfish people allow the behavior of others to make them feel bad. They constantly dwell on who hurt and mistreated them but they never concern themselves with the people they have offended. Stop carrying anger or resentment in your heart against a person who more than likely didn't realize their actions or conduct caused you pain.

Step 2: Stop giving your joy away. Everyday we are faced with circumstances beyond our control with the potential to rob us of our happiness. Are you going to give your joy away because someone cut you off in traffic? Are you going to give your joy away because the cashier at the grocery store was rude to you? If you keep doing that, at the end of the day you will have no joy left and the people you love the most will suffer because of it. Quit allowing strangers, people you will never see again, take your peace away. Make up your mind you are not going to get aggravated because another person is having a bad day or has bad manners. Be determined to stay in peace.

Step 3: Use reason to govern your actions, instead of emotion. Do not allow your feelings or emotions to control you. If you continue letting your emotions rule you, you will never be free as there will always be something or someone to keep you on edge.

Step 4: Do not bite the bait. The enemy loves to push our buttons and he uses people to trap us into mediocrity, but reacting the same way is just another trip around the same mountain. Cultivate a new way to react and watch how the people who love to aggravate you lose their power over you.

So far, from the above, I don't find myself having this prob, so one pass, alot more to gox.x
Maybe next time I post will be another topic about mature again hahaz. Need to know and start to change slowly, taking each stepping stone and reach near a certain level with the society.

Hm.. need have money to be fashion conscience eh? Alright!

2010-04-02T22:08:00.003+08:00

Hm.. today good friday, a day to rest at home, wells, literally doing nothing.
My wish didn't came true:( Hot weather, I can't sleep man!

Yesterday went for appointment. Hope results ain't serious. I will be knowing this in the next appointment. But ergh, the fees.. Can't complain though, government already subsidized half the actual amount.
Watched 'When in Rome'. Like it, very funny hahaz. Recommended again:)

Hm.. don't know what to say le, tmw going watch lovely bones, and maybe going other places.

Till next time!

Signing off~

2010-03-30T00:40:00.003+08:00

Time fly so fast, been around 2 weeks since I blog o.o

I'm tired, needa catch some rest.

Anyways. Busy, with work, with life, with wayne, and with peeps hahaz.

Got my ps2 back from my sis, like finally, last week since 2005/2006? Bought some games from malaysia to play. And my sis self service packed my ps2 and my new/old games in one plastic bag, ready to bring to her bf house yesterday. Thank goodness I reached home just in time before they left. Bought it with my own money, and she can take my ps2 away for so many bloody years when I thought its only for some months, and now want bring it to her new bf house for another few more years when I can finally claim ownership back for a week? Pui. Still give me attitude somemore like as if thats her stuff.
Wheres the bonding man. Treat house like hotel, finally see you after like 2 weeks? Seen you for like, 10 mins? Poof your gone again with your bf after that. God knows when your coming back next time. When will you wake up and start to treasure the family? Continue to make it part broken thanks to you.

House still crisis. I'm still broke, no matter how much I've work, even if I work longer hours atm. -Borrowing- money from parents still, cos kept running out of ezlink fare. Pay not yet given. Zzzz. Till now I still don't know how my mum was able to -owe- 1k+ bucks man. Now should be increasing as each day passes. Can't believe 1k+ bucks so diff to return.

Practices, performances, work. Work again tmw. Taught/mentored 2 vietnamese peeps since friday cos the cafe peeps dont speak much english(prefer chinese).

Can't go see my kids on thurs. Doc's appointment on that day. So funny, of all days, april fool's day? Haiz. Don't know want laugh or cry. As long result is nothing serious, I'll be relieved.
I'm scared and nervous lols.

Felt like slacking one whole day, and playing game on ps2 instead. Yep, missing those days when I play final fantasy 7 9 x x-2, wild arms etc like some siao ginna during sec school days. hahaz. Didn't rest whole day at all nowadays.

Lately love to eat fried stuff, can feel myself getting 'chubbier'. Wanna go on diet, but fried stuff just tempts me so. Damn.

Watched afew movies recently, thanks to silly one again.
Can't remember what movies, though the recent one is 'how to train a dragon'. Of cos, non 3d, me no like 3d:(
As again, recommended, wells, highly recommended hahaz. Like what justina said in her blog, if she say nice, means its -REALLY- nice. She seldom say movies are nice>.> But yep, so coincidence met her at bugis mrt, though she's the one that taps me from behind hahaz, I'm too busy textingx.x Btw can't believe wayne 'instructed' you buy kinder bueno for me=.= Your getting one back soon! bwahaha~ Guess you don't have to ask me a certain question anymore ba, like that time at trcc cafe, if you still remember hahaz.

Hm, this post, paragraphs and all, aren't arrange according to days etc. Just type anything that comes into my mind.
Overall, random bits of posts here and there hahaz.
Grammars etc, heck care!

Oh well... 2 more days.. I'm worried about the doc's fees and results.. The main problem for now..

-;-;-;-
Exams coming, jy, can do it! Celebratex2 after you finish up report etc:)

'I picture your face in the back of my eyes,
A fire in the attic, a proof of the prize,
Anomaly, Anomaly, Anomaly,'

2010-03-18T00:48:00.003+08:00

Working, CO, ronald thought I disappear haha!

Today went pretty smooth, boss daughter drew a pic of me and put the name: stephanie tai, haha! cos she saw my scorebook in front got stephanie's name(thought its my name), then she so proud somemore! But thanks ar:) Still draw a dizi beside haha!

I rusted, alot:( Fingerings jammed up when using D major just to play a G major song, then fingers jammed somemore till I realised halfway through the song the major change to D major=.= By then I already died, haha!
Met new faces, met a dead fly(dunno how hsien hean managed to catch it o.o), and talk, talktalktalk.
I'm itching to try out the violin:(

Suppose to sleep, but drying hair, and needa wake up at 6am tmwx.x Same goes for Friday and Sat. Busy on thurs(if confirmed) and fri(confirm) for the whole day, not sure about Sat, but it should be the day for me to rest, like finally, or else I become zombie:(

Time for me to sleep! Waking in 4 hours timex.x

Signing off~

2010-03-17T01:17:00.002+08:00

Tues midnight=Wed morning:)

Went to work yesterday as per usual, but the boss ask me to bring dizi down to let their daughter try hahaz. At first the daughter disappointed, cos she thought its those band 'flutes'x.x but after that she ask me to play afew songs for her, then she became interested and keep want try haha! Trytrytry, till she dizzy cos she breathe out too much and damn hard o.o; at least shes able to play a 'mary had a lil lamb' fully! She's only in pri school as well, but guessed for now she still prefer recorder, cos 'easier to play one note out'; she took lots of tries to get the note out clearly, and maintain the different notes out clearly till she lou feng again hahaz.

Today work as well, and she auto ask me lend her dizi hahaz. I love kids man, so shy and cute. Frustrated when no sound come out at times -but- still want keep try. Was intended to go CO today, thats why brought dizi bag, but theres always a last min stuff hahaz. -I think I'm getting more and more used to it-
Able to buy/get some home stuff thanks to a certain peep:) just in case I got starved again like what happened during the weekendsx.x

Hm.. though I keep say I'm broke, but I'm still able to watch movies-cough-

So... ANYWAYS, watched 'Being Human' and 'Up in the Air'.
Being human, directed by J team, main char mark lee featuring NoNo! hahaz. Of cos a comedy and local show, quite epic at afew parts, recommended to watch!:)
Up in the air is more of a 'job' biography thingy about this main char(is fictional I think!) who goes flying around the world for 270 out of 365 days o.o And yep, talking about his life, who is involved and etc. Lots of people watched, and I'm not surprised. Though it may sound boring to you guys, the show contains some humor and the seriousness inside, I like it:)
Man, overall, I like alot of movies as long as its not gore or horror=.=;

Lately I love to listen to english songs with different covers, and updated the playlist(wells, just 2-3 songs o.o;) the latest will be the ones that are being played on the spot, the covers then the original:)
Currently I'm quite interested in the songs this youtube user/group 'davedays' has hahaz.
Out of the songs I love 'Down'(Jay Sean cover), 'Love story'(Taylor Swift cover), 'I'm just a baby'(Justin Bieber parody).

Wells, to anyone who -does- listen to my blog songs, enjoy 'Down' cover from davedays. He sang an additional short paparazzi(Gaga) near the end hahaz.
Just realized I love pop-punk songs alot:)

Gonna go sleep now, waking up in 5 hours timex.x Busy weekdays for me, busy on sat, maybe sun as well hahaz.

Gonna go malaysia for 1 day with a peep and 2 more peeps!:)

Can I keep feeling guilty that I don't have to spend money during that day due to unforeseen circumstances?x.x

Signing off~

-;-;-;-;-
'So leave it behind cos we have a night to get away,
So come on and fly with me, as we make our great escape.'

2010-03-13T22:55:00.005+08:00

Messed up, chaotic stuff happenings since the last post.

As a follow-up from the previous post, wells, I didn't get a result, but I have to wait till April Fools day to go through the examination and diagnosis. Sigh.. Pretty much 0 cash and savings, I don't know how I'm supposed to pay for the medical fees.. And hoping that the results will turn out alright..

ANYWAYS! For the time being, can't get out of house, can't take the bus, I'm literally bounded to this house except for working at cafe, since its at woodlands area hahaz. I still haven't decide how I'm going to xingnan next time if I can't even solve my ezlink issue. Till I got my pay from the school, wells, won't be mine anyways, guess I have to be bounded to this house for 2 months hahaz. Food etc nada. Felt as if I'm going WW2 hahaz, just that I don't have to worry about having no roof over my head.

Didn't know just 1 little quarrel with my parents for 5 mins, like, after yearssss, they don't bothered to even buy just dinner alone for me. Plus I have literally 0 money left. The last meal I had is at xingnan in the morning, 1 curry puff and a biscuit as refreshment from the teachers to the CO peeps.

Oh wells, jy gen, though suffering atm, I will buck up and face the challenges, so that I won't suffer anymore in the future:) First thing, as always, get rid of my lazinessx.x;

P.S. This is my blog, my story. I'm able to post what I want, be it good or bad. But I will try my best not to insult anyone here. No sympathies towards me at my current status, arigato:) I will get stronger and be more confident!:)

P.S.S Though I've known you for a very short time, but so far, what you've said really casts a deep impression onto me. Will it be surprising if I said that your the first that said all those to me on fri? Ps again of last min backout after making you waste your time teaching/explaining, though you say its alright. Not sure if you will ever read my blog again, but arigato, thanks David, I'm grateful:) Cya next time kay? Hope we won't lose contact!

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An extract from an anime short song cut scene(as usual>.>;)

Words are born, are faded away.
But they will continue to live on in you.
When you feel that you can't go on, they will change, and give you courage.
So, stand up, keep moving forward,
You are stronger now than you were before.
Do not hesititate any longer.
Believe in those words from back then.
Continue to live on through them.
A new journey begins..

A random poem/rhyme from me:

A series of sleepless nights,
Harder for me to feel alright.
Will I really be fine..?

A battle between the soul and the body,
I'm cracking up within.
Panic coursing through me,
Not knowing what the outcome will be.

Awaiting for the calm after a storm,
Where the cracks will slowly gather, and form.
Gaining the experience, the scars from within,
Continuing the life that I'm in.
Where another new challenge is waiting for me.

Till the next time, take care peeps, enjoy your hols:)

Signing off~

2010-03-11T00:08:00.003+08:00

Nearly one week has passed, and I'm back to talktalk abit before I lalaland hahaz.

Hm.. like always, I can't remember much of what happen past few days ago, but to summarise it up, I'm working both at RP and boon lay as usual. Went home to rest and slack when theres time.

Watched Alice in Wonderland with wayne, me not having to pay -again- as usual, but I will get a stable job soon if possible, and pay back! But yep, the movie's nice, funny, storyline usual as always, but yep, pretty much it. But I love the twisted and creative parts in some areas, I love the cards appearance!(Weird right?o.o) hahaz~

Tmw's gonna be a damn damn busy day. Working at rp, working at boonlay, and lastly having practice at boonlay, all ranging from 8am to 9/10 pm. Jy gen, hahaz.

Random:
I'm looking/not looking forward to this friday morning/afternoon. I'm scared of the results. I'm scared of the outcome. Atm financial seems to be the secondary factor. The primary factor is this. But yea, I'm worried about the amount I have to pay. Though I don't care about the amount -for now-, as long as I'm alright, fine, healthy, thats what matters. Just hope that nothing will go wrong, everything will be fine, and I can finally sleep peacefully.

I felt a pain. A bruise-like pain. And its making me paranoid. To emphasize, VERY paranoid.

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Just thinking about this prob makes me cry, alot. I'm glad your there, to accompany me through this.

"Snow Snow For Lucy" Trailer

2010-03-05T00:53:00.003+08:00

HMMM weird, I remember talking about this vid before I embed and it poof!=.=;

Anyways, this a short movie trailer done by Andrew Kerekes (Writer/Director/Producer/Animator/Composer). I was just browsing through newgrounds flash portal and found this under 'Best of all times', thus I decided to take a look at it hahaz.

Though the artwork may look -ve to peeps who watched it, but the animation, storyplot and creativity is damn amazing and nice man.

Supposed to be 44mins long, but the composer realised that it can be cut to 22 mins long without affecting the storyline.

Those who are bored, or interested, can go check out this website:

http://www.snowsnowforlucy.com/

I dunno how to embed the actual movie here through Newgrounds(IT idiot), but you can go to the main site that links to newgrounds featuring the movie:)

Low quality for now, but high quality coming up soon!

Enjoy the movie on that site!:)

2010-03-04T20:10:00.001+08:00

During that call, I'm surprised and disappointed. Sigh.. Didn't expect it to happen this way.. Guessed I'm one step too late..

2010-03-04T00:27:00.003+08:00

Random complants/vents. Your advised not to read on. It's my blog for my rantings and so on, that will happen once a blue moon, hopefully.

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Another new day, and I'm so not looking forward to each day.

I hate family problems, especially financially.
I hate being nagged continuously and stressed on every single day.
I hate it when I felt like I'm the sole provider for the household.
I hate it that my sis has the money, and spends everything away on fashion and brands and blah.
I hate it when my sis treat the house as a hotel, doesn't come back for days, and once she did, only comes back at night, and gone the next morning.
I hate it that my sis doesn't care or bother at all when this particular problem happens.
I hate it that we have 0% of sister bonding. Sister/stranger, whats the diff?
I hate myself for stressing and thinking of this everyday.
I hate it that I can't survive this month even when I got my pay cheque etc.
I hate it that I'm working and earning, but all the money ain't for me.
I hate it that I can't even deposit abit of what I earned towards my savings.
I hate it that I can't even use abit of my earnings for transportation etc since I have no allowance at all.
I hate being poor, alot.
So many hates on just one thing, and too many for me to list down.

'Money makes the world go round.'-> Thats what I heard from wayne.
It's starting to make me more money-minded if this continues, thanks to my mum.
Won't be surprised if I just started breaking down anywhere, anytime.
It makes me feel like giving up working and just let this family collapse.
Peeps work to save up, to give some/half of their earnings to their parents, or stuffs that they wanted to buy.
Whats the reason of working when I felt like a complete slave and a sole provider in my family? I can't go out at all, or I can't go out much without worrying money this and money that. It's like comon, I got nagged the moment I step -out of doors=waste money-.
Its seriously affecting me everyday, making me lose motivation over things that I like to do, places I like to go.
It's making me more envious of peeps who have a loving family and doesn't worry at all about money/financial probs or having themselves involved in it.
I just wanna give up, and stayed at home being a potato couch.
I just don't wanna do anything at all.

Sigh.. No good wasting time since the moment I'm born. No good wasting my life away due to this. Theres afew peeps out there whos gone through worse than me, and able to do well and all.
I wonder when I will have my freedom. I'm gonna be 21 this year, but its a fact that my parents literally controlled my life. Where to study, what to study, now telling me what to work as well, and even if I've searched for a job and waiting for my email about a interview, they are already asking me when I'm starting to work, when I will get paid, how much I will earn. Comon, I haven't even receive a confirmation email for the interview and its still far long apart for me to start working even if I pass! Damn pressures. Stop pushing me against the wall, theres already a damn big crack there!!

Just one thing, can seriously messed up my life and my mind if I don't find a way to solve this, though the only way now, is get a stable job, doubt I will enjoy if I got it, thanks to the naggings and the stress/pressure each and every day.

Since sec 3 till now? My life has been fucked up. I will do my best to make it turn right again. At least, before I reach my breaking point.
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I guess, its very difficult for me not to rely on anyone or vent on when this situation happens.
Just hoping I will get the email soon so I can finally stop hearing the naggings from my parents.
I wish to go there with you, hahaz call it paradise somemore, so cute la you:)
Wells.. can go when I got money.. that is.. if I can ever get them..
Still waiting patiently, one or 2 days left:)
Though smsing you being cheerful and all, trying not to let you feel something is wrong, but within, my mind's slowly breaking apart.
If this thing continues somemore, I will just emotionally burst anytime.
Sigh.. I can't take it..
How I wish.. your by my side at times like this.. Hahaz, selfish mex.x But nope, want you to enjoy your days:)
Red monkey, coming back anytime! hahaz, can't wait:)

2010-02-28T23:54:00.003+08:00

Afew more mins to mon. By the time I've finished posting it'll be monday! Alright I'm just crapping.

Not sure why, but I can't remember what I've done since my last post except for my work and performance at blcc and movie.

Helped out in a perfomance for cny dinner on friday night, damn 'wow' at the performance location. Rich people! Even the chinese dinner styles are way way different. Makes me want earn alot alot, and live in one of those places! Missed the last episode of ch u hahaz. At least I heard what happen from my mum whose watching:)

Yep, work on sat as always. I'm quite disappointed at one/ two of the kids there. Seeks lotsa lotsa attention instead of really focusing on what they are suppose to be practicing, till I boom haha. But yep, they -are- kids, have to control them. Some are alright, afew are like angels haha! Listening to the selected few during mainstream, makes me feel that I have to try harder to help them improve, its coming in one month man. The tension is building up. Plus theres no lesson for this week till sat, cos kids having common testsx.x

Hm, watched 'Dear John' hahaz, I recommended to those who likes romance:) Smooth storyline, I like the camera angles at certain areas where I don't normally see in other movies:) Oh yeaa, those who watched gv movies, should try out the mash potato! Its damn yummy, bwahaha! Cathay doesn't sell that, so sad:/
Oh yea, can't remember whether I've posted it or not, but watched Percy Jackson as well. Nice! Not sure why peeps say it isn't nice, but yep, another recommendation! I like the graphics and what Percy say at times haha! Enjoy these two shows if you all are interested!

Oh wells, going back to cafe to work for the time being hahaz, boss want me to work, even during the holidays o.o; And yes, thats very surprising hahaz.

I'm seriously losing in touch with the society, that includes, just interacting. I don't even feel like talking or smsing peeps at all. Oh noes. Whats wrong with me -again-?
I don't wanna be like before man, the damn quiet mute me. Never ever. I need to talk. Talk talk talk talk!
But, I don't know what causes it. If this continues I might find myself talking to pooh=.= thats a nono!

ANYWAYS! Off to bed! Gonna wake up early for work, nitez peeps!

Signing off~

Random!
Wayne, wyane, wayne, wyane, wayne! bwahaha!

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Waiting patiently for 4 days
Trying to gain some independence during those days!

2010-02-25T02:16:00.002+08:00

Time fly so fast, now wed/thurs already!

Have been spending lotsa time with silly one due to unforeseen circumstances hahaz, though I have work now and thenx.x
But next week I will focus on co more:)

Anyways, I have been having weird dreams lately, not just weird, but bad. They seriously make me unable to sleep, plus I'm still having my coughing fits out of the blue, literally cough myself awake=.=;
-I wish they won't come true-

Lost two of my most precious stuff, I don't even know when and where I lost them!! I got a feeling my mum knows it but pretends she doesn't know. Ergh, can't find them anywhere! Makes me feel like crying on that day, when I search through the common places. Am searching still. It can't just drop off outdoors, since I rarely take them offx.x
No matter what, I will find them, and hope they won't just poof, unless, thats my mum's doing. She seems to know something is fishy since some time ago, its just a matter of time before she finds out. Have to prepare lots of explanation if that happens.

Having work as usual tmw, and pco after that. Gonna take another try to search my stuff before I leave home.

Just felt like saying, I feel like I'm losing touch with the society, won't be surprise if I lost touch of it completely. But no, the time will come for me to know my surroundings and etc. This is the start of a beginning!

Feeling hungry suddenly, so random, plus think migraine came to visit, head is abit swimming now and then man! Sleepy as well, hope there will be sweet dreams, and not badx.x

Alright, gonna go hit the hay or the wall or something, nitez peeps!

Signing off~

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Afew more days time..x.x Erghh!
Shhh must control!x.x
Maintain control 1 week!

2010-02-21T21:03:00.001+08:00

2nd post, specially for vegie....

MUST COME BACK FRONTIER AR! At least afew times la! Don't poof forever ar my dizi partner, or I'll 'hate' you:(

2010-02-21T16:40:00.002+08:00

Got back from pco performances just a couple hours ago!

Was bullying vegie as per usual haha! Cos she bully me first:( Playing 4 songs; 3 cny and love story hahaz. Perfomance pass pretty alright, and the mc also gave ang bao to each of us, quite surprisinglyo.o;

Went home to have lunch with family, cos sis brought her bf along hahaz. After that practice abit of guitar with my dad and her bf.

Now resting at home, later need go help ma sell tix for chingay thingy for rc event!

Till later!

2010-02-20T02:10:00.004+08:00

Nothing much to post, was resting at home whole day today. Coughing fits began to lessen gradually, but still there! Gonna sleep soon, cos working at 8am in like, less than 6 hours!

Smiley!:)

Just wanna share this pic I got from school's cafe a month or so ago, while I'm bored and playing with leftover food from a catering event>.> Just wanna say, life's going great atm, but I'm trying to make this life greater:)

Till then, nitez peeps!

Signing off~

P.S. It's happening the way you say it. You should be -very very very- happy that it came true.

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Ways to keep healthy, less fried food, less fatty food, less smokes, more fruits!:)

2010-02-19T03:34:00.004+08:00

Boo!! Long time no blog! Been abit busy this past few days due to cny! Will post down in diff paragraphs of my days hahaz!

Day before cny eve: Went to celebrate advance valentine's day. Didn't get to spend the whole day, cos he had schooling(it's friday). Had dinner at newton circle(savings!) plus a night movie. Gave him the gifts I've prepared, but he likes my diy card more! More diy cards next time? No pics for me to remember the cards I've done:(

Cny eve: Went to my ah ma house for reunion dinner. Wells, I don't know what happen, other than one other family, the rest didn't turn up. Unable to contact them as well, and to think the 2 maids prepared so much food, but only 2 families are having dinner. What the hell's going on? Went home after staying abit over there. Not a happy reunion dinner for the first time.

First day: Went to relatives(jiu mu) house! I'm quite happy to be over there, relative's niece is as cute and playful as always, forgot to take pic of her:( nephew is having a fever, so his hyperness = 0>.>; Gambled mahjong and cards, eek, lose afew bucks, hahaz but thats lil! Will get back my losses next year! Afterthat went to my relative house to just one storey above my jiu mu house o.o; Same age, and chatted with her quite well, even when we didn't meet each other for one year hahaz. Don't mind meeting her out whenever possible:) Her bro is too busy studying for exams, didn't talk much to him hahaz. Reached home nearly 2+am. Boy so ke lianx.x

2nd day: Went back to ah ma house. This time 3 more families came, but 2 of those left suddenly after lunch. First time also. Other than the same family who had reunion dinner with us, I'm quite unhappy for the rest of the day. Cousin bond is breaking up more and more. I didn't even get to see a particular cousin of mine for those 2 days at all. I hate this breaking feeling. Went back around 10+pm, really no point to stay.

3rd day: Went body world and science centre:) First time going to body world, seriously can't believe all the human parts etc are donated, but I don't feel disgusted at all, I'm learning while looking at the exhibits(?)! Took a lil break before going science centre:) Didn't get to spend much time going through every area though. But it really gives a damn nostalgic feeling. Had dinner at clementi before watching the movie : 72 tenants. A funny comedy show, recommended to peeps who likes lame and humor and comedy at the same time!

Yesterday: Working. Met up with silly one afterwards hahaz. Was getting quite sick, abit of a dry coughing fit, stayed at home resting the rest of the day.

Today: Working as usual. Thanks silly one for fetching me, then had lunch at the primary school hahaz, so cheap! Went to pco afterwards. Wooo, finally practicing in a air con hall!! Though we are hiding behind the curtains at the stageo.o; Chatchat with VEGIE(bwahaha~) most of the time hahaz, practice the usual songs, though I'm abit z at some parts. Coughing fits getting more serious and continuous. Went home straight afterwards, but miss the ch u show:( Tmw got half day to rest and hoping my coughing fits will cease.. I damn xingku man, first time dry cough plus coughing fits! My voice is seriously changing, ergh. Hope it will recover soonx.x

Unable to sleep thanks to my coughing fits now and then. Drank warm water, but it doesn't help at all, ergh! Mum got fed up with my coughs cos she can't sleep with all the 'noise', in the end close the room door on me=.=; not I want de okay! Sigh..

Worry about other stuff as well.. Have to go polyclinic, but not cos of the coughing fits.. Can't go atm, cos either I don't have the time, or I don't have the money hahaz.. Hope that nothing will happen once I went for a checkup.. Don't wanna go for surgery if something bad happens hahaz.. CHOY!!x.x I'm not worried at all till he talk to me about it.. Haiz.. To think all these years, I thought its normal...

Woah, so fast 4am! zzzzzzz, alright, think I will stop here for the 'day'.
Nitez and laterz!

Signing off

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1 dollar per day into your lil piggy bank!
I'm helpless, but I want to let you know that I'm there no matter what:)
Hope you won't get sick due to my coughsx.x
The kids so cute today, saw you, and keep asking me about you!
Enjoying the days, and don't worry, I will get better! -cough poofs magically-O.O! hahaha don't -.- me!
Can your bad temper become a balloon? So that I can use a needle to poke it, and....-temper poofs magically- bwahahha!!!! okay you confirm -.- me:(
I will get stronger!
Jy for your exams, don't worry too much k?-sayang- You can do it!

2010-02-12T03:43:00.003+08:00

Its very late atm, so gonna just crap abit then lalaland hahaz.

Not sure where I ended my last post(lazy to check), but ANYWAYS, went to work today. Kids are playful as always, though theres at least half who are hardworking and ask me how the song goes in some parts etc. Afew skip their break just to self-practice, thats goodo.o;

Time fly very fast, after work went pco. Played the same songs, though I felt like trying out gao yin sheng! But got a new guy came, then can't try:( I keep bully vegie sia, so baddie of me hahaz! After pco half rushed home to catch the ch u show, but I didn't manage to see in time:( Was suppose to do a recording, but dad reached home after 1030, no need anymorex.x

Cny is coming, haiz. I don't look forward to relative and cousin's house, though I'm looking forward to the body world! My ma say disgusting, cos so many flesh here and there, wait I vomito.o I won't know till I go there see in person!:)

Not much plans for the weekend, just reunion dinner.. I think thats it o.o;

Late le! Time to hit bed! Nitez peeps jy to those having last ut tmw!

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Less than 15 hours!! Hope the day pass smoothly:)

2010-02-10T00:39:00.002+08:00

Am back! Gonna go sleep straight after this hahaz.

Went for CO on sunday, and have lunch with wenshan they all before going home.
Resting and watching anime before I left home to meet up with da jie, her ma, her ah ma, her ah ma sister( wah so many 'ma') for dinner at Ding Tai Feng(sp) before going to see the wushu performance/drama by beijing wushu team.
Cos its their first time having a performance, they seem quite nervous hahaz! But overall their wushu skills = inhuman, they are creative to make up a story plot for the performance, it blends well with their martial arts hahaz. The peeps from beijing wushu team are currently coaches from all over the countries(if I'm not wrong), but yep, I don't mind attending another performance by them again!:)
Once finished, trained home straight after that:)

Mon having the same old same old stuff again hahaz, just that theres so few customers that day due to UT 3. I'm literally bored to death, and damn sleepy at just 1pm++=.= After work walk to cwy mrt with aunty sharon hahaz! She so cute and funny! Nice to talk to also! I can't believe it when she told me her age. Damn, she look young with her cute personality hahaz! After that went walk walk, go home watch anime again(watching a series) before heading to bed.

Tues same old stuff, and had CO afterwards. Left at 7 pm due to a call I had just afew mins earlier. Damn ps to jasonx.x Got abit z must say ar! Don't hidehide accumulate till next time!

Tmw going to work at cafe again, cos can go straight to co. Felt damn guilty I didn't go xingnan again, but bo bian, tmw is my last day at the cafe cos I no time to work on thurs and fridayx.x
Hope the xingnan teacher won't z, though most prob she will>.>

Signing off~ Tired!

P.S. Before, your soft on the outside, hard on the inside. Now, your soft on the outside, more soft on the inside, fragile. Collapse and I'll laugh, literally.

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Happy, happy, happy-splat- o.o

2010-02-06T21:26:00.003+08:00

Yosh! I'm back!

Hmmm till now peeps should know I have 2 busy weeks hahaz, same old procedure and life.
Today didn't do much. After lesson was supposed to go out for a walk, but so qiao, met silly one in the same train and carriage. But actually, I was dozing off when he saw me and use his file to kajiao my leg>.>;
Since I nothing to do, I pei him go school hahaz, slack slack till he finish, then I go home.

So many things to do, but I don't have the time-hopefully afternoon-x.x

Till then, laterz! CO tmw as per usual hahaz.

Signing off~

2010-02-04T23:26:00.005+08:00

Mood: Feeling damn crappy.

Went to work as usual, afterthat went to frontier cc.
Went through 4 cny songs for upcoming performance. Wind damn shiok, I like.
Didn't know finish early though, thought 930, in the end 9pm.
Hungry, dabao kfc rush home for supper alone while watching ch u.

I must not be angry no matter what happens.

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2010-02-04T00:22:00.002+08:00

Been working and CO as usual! Nothing much to say about since its the same stuff everyday hahaz.

Got to go work tmw as usual and having practice!

Reminding myself to record ch 5 tmw!

Hmmmm, nothing to talk about now, gen is now signing off~

2010-02-02T00:20:00.003+08:00

Back to blogging another short bit!

Can't remember much nowadaysx.x Can't put down so detailed journal anymore compared to how I used to blog last time.

Anyways, I've watched 'Toothfairy' and 'The Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus' for consecutive 2 days:)
Sat: Toothfairy is funny, and hm.. mainly directed to kids to watch. Oh wells, I'm like a kid, I enjoyed the show greatly! Dwayne Johnson should act in more comedy shows! Silly one dozed off:( Have to pokepoke him afew times to keep him awake>.>;
Sun: Watch Doctor Parnassus with silly one and his mum.... Wells, personal opinion, I don't recommend you guys to watch hahaz. A very very confusing + cmi storyline o.o; And due to me being abit deaf plus no subtitles, its definitely a 'erghhh' from me. I can't hear what they are talking about at some parts. Beginning of the movie I'm like '????', the ending I'm like '??????????????'. Hahaz his mum understand the whole movie storyplot and explain to meo.o; Overall, I catch no balls what the movie is about, full stop.=.=;

Hahaz, on that day(sunday) silly one's mum treat me eat crystal jade for dinner! Damn paiseh, cos I haven't got my money* yet, or else I will try my best not to let her treat!x.x When got leftover food left, she tell me to dabao home and eat more hahaz, indirectly saying I'm thin. I'm getting fattt! Tummy fats got one abit flabby pack liao haha! I haven't started swimming yet to get back to shape! Lazy me as usual:(

Having the same schedule week as last week, like robot man! Looking forward for the weekends to rest abit abit if possible hahaz.

Random~ Lvl 87 base! Still ongoing! Damnn zoom, your fast:( I have pathetic stats:( The knight quest is still in the quest list lols! But I can't continue or delete it, its gonna stay there forevero.o;

Cny is coming~ Though theres no more reason for me to celebrate anymore. Since the day grandpa passed away on cousin's side, we don't meet up much anymore. I don't even know whether theres a reunion dinner like before with the others. Sigh. The bond is breaking faster than I thought.
Same goes for relative's side. I only meet them once a year, and thats cny. That's practically it. Bond also breaking, same goes for contact. I really don't know whats gonna happen for this year's cny.
Peeps are looking forward to get lots of angbaos and how much they gonna get to buy the stuffs they want. While for me? I already stop thinking about that. Doesn't matter how much I get, its only those few, less than half of what I've been earning per month through working at trcc, and I only work there around 3 days per week excluding this week. Angbaos are just something that helps me to pull through the rest of the month or into my savings, thats it.

Gonna try saving up my earnings whenever I can. Try to refrain spending on unnecessary stuff. Eat less fried and ex stuffx.x

* Even if I got money, I have to save it till I have a stable job, before I treat silly one's mum to a restaurant etc. Really paiseh that she has been treating me for quite some time. Thanksss!

No matter what, jyjy, I can do it! I know I can:)

Signing off to pigland~

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The beginning of your studies, the end of my working days.
Jy and tahan throughout the lessons, while I go find another part time job for awhile.
Am starting to save whenever I can now. Hope you are too:)
Looking forward on the 3rd day of cny.

I wanna continue reading that fat book!!:(

2010-01-30T00:22:00.002+08:00

Boo back!

Having work today as usual, finally I can find more things to do, the day pass quite fasto.o;
Decided to skip staff meal and grab a teriyaki wrap to snack on at home hahaz:P It's damn nice!

Not doing much at home today, though decided to back to gaming once in awhile.
Back to RO after some yearso.o; I literally forgot how to play the game and the hotkeys to press etc=.=;

Dunno why, but I love playing warriors>.>; Damnn, I don't think I can catch up with that zoompig:(
Till now only lvl 50+ with lvl 43 swordsman, died on the 3rd knight test:( Aiming to get lvl 50 and retry that particular test again, hopefully soon:/

Gotta wake up in 5 1/2 hours later, ahh!!

Saying nights to the world at.... 1230am! I think~

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A hiss,
A miss,
That poofs with a kiss~

2010-01-29T00:20:00.002+08:00

Boo! Back to a short post blogging!

Went tiong bahru for the first time of my life! Hahaz, watching a fast sneak peek preview, 14 blades:)
Didn't know they give out goodie bags as well o.o
Tiong bahru not much to walk about hahaz, had lunch at mcd before watching movie:)

Hahaz, wells, like always, I recommend peeps to watch this movie! Action packed as always, and unexpected humour here and there, damn funny!! One of the actor's is Wu Zhun(sp?) hahaz! Those who watched his drama shows, should know how he will act in movie ba? No spoilers~ Enjoy watching, its coming out soon in cinemas!

Back to work tmw! I miss the samosa and chicken chunk:( Oh noess, I'm addicted! Plus just a week or 2 more for me, then bb cafe! Not sure whether I will still continue on or notx.x
Oops, forgot to inform pauline again that I'm not working todayx.x Thought she might remember that I told her last weekx.x ahhh!

Hm.. might watch the blind side and its complicated this weekend, not quite surex.x Have to watch before they poof from the slots, which is soon!!

Just realized afew days back that theres alot of movies to catch for the month of feb! Hope got the time and money to watch hahaz:)

Till then, gen's gonna go to her lalaland with pooh hahaz!

Signing off~

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2nd HAM :)
or 2 years 4mth:)
I bet you forgot!-piakk-:P

2010-01-25T23:24:00.006+08:00

Hmmmmmmmmmmm, don't ask me why, but I was surfing deviantart and came across pokemon 'gijinka'o.o; Kiddy childishness is back!
Search through google, and came across some pics drawn by _Absol_ I think, which I find quite cute hahaz!
Oops, I'm a old pokemon version bigbig fan>.>;

Wellss, wanted to share to you peeps, not interested then shooo, don't read this post!
Putting some that I find it cute and really match the pokemon hahaz:P

Charmeleon! Rowdy~

Pidgey and Pigeot, cool man!

Pikachu and Gloom! Cute expressions:P

Psyduck blur-cute!! And growlithe is cute too!

Abra and Alakazam~ Chibi and mature siaa

Eevee, Jolteon, Flareon, my fav evolutions:P

Electabuzzzzzz

Togepi damnnn cute!

Mr Mime! The human damn funny!

Wah, in the end alot of pics hahazx.x But yep, theres afew more which I like also! Peeps should be remembering the old pokemon series during childhood le ba hahaz!
Hope you all enjoy:P

Zomg so late liao, suppose to sleep at 11pm!
Nitez peeps!

Signing off~

2010-01-25T20:31:00.003+08:00

Woo, today quite happy, cos alot of people when I went to work today! Finally got more time to kill offf!

Oh noess, work is ending in two weeks! Cos school gonna holidays toox.x Really must chiong work on all days whenever possible now, don't know how much I'm getting:/ But I know I still owe someone money! Wait arr, its flying back to you soon!

Some stuff happen during work today, can't say here o.o; But lets just say, the staff peeps are frantic and abit panick about something, got mini chaos hahaz. But it got solved after the boss did some calling o.o;

Went straight home after work, and spend the time using my lappy>.>;

Work as usual tmw, plus co! Ronald coming! Haiz, I'm still going nowhere with dizix.x No improves! ergh.

Guess I'll be sleeping early tonight, since -the swarms- today got make me abit tired hahaz. Won't be surprised if I'm half dead tmw during co:(

Till then, laterz~

-;-;-;-
I'm starting to read the first book~ 2 more to go, hopefully finishing by the end of a couple of months!
Let the both of us jyjy for this busy week!

2010-01-24T17:59:00.003+08:00

Had CO today!

Was wanting to reach before 10, but in the end, I reached on timex.x

But no one reach recital room yet! so far only saw ronald and loke chuah in the cc office printing scores hahaz.

Hmm, busy schedule ahead! Preparing in progress, hope I won't get too lazy and skipped work againx.x

Might blog more later tonight, not sure yet.

Till then, laterz~

-;-;-;-

You know my anger lasts less than 24 hours de arr:)

But, you must try not to let your anger boom very long when something happens ya?-hugs-

2010-01-23T23:56:00.003+08:00

Nothing much to blog today, but maybe leaving some random crap hahaz.

Hmm, my ma past few days scolded me cos of me skipping work, but now alright le:)
Guess my ma personality passed down to me:( Cos no matter how angry, over one day alright liao, can talktalk hahaz.

As usual, I'm rotting at home practically today. Laptop all day, all night.
But if nothing goes wrong, I should be pretty busy starting from next week.
Schedules should be:
Mon - work(to replace work for skipping on friday)
Tues - work, co
Wed - work(not sure going to which one), not going co for that day only
Thurs - work, co
Fri - work
Sat - work
Sun - co

Guess my life atm revolves around co and work ba hahazo.o;
But if I stop being lazy for a moment, and really chiong, what I earned will be around a full timer money ba.
Co is a form of entertainment, leisure, and learning as well, in a way, its considered non-stressful days for me:)
But doesn't mean I am free for other activities as well. Busy week, and hopefully the boss won't get mad with me due to my non-stop requestsx.x Don't gunna sacked can liao!x.x

But yep, preparing to get busy for next week! jy!

Signing off~

-;-;-;-
Starting next week, the days of meeting up are getting lesser..
But! I will be looking forward to sundays:)
And other days if possible!
Both of us, time to save up and earn!

2010-01-22T22:30:00.002+08:00

Hm.. Had work on wed, but skipped practice for that day as well, cos silly one got a very bad headache since morning hahaz, I damn worried.
Called Ronald that I won't be going, he sound disappointedx.x But I'm gonna try to turn up earlier on sunday to practice!

Hm.. thurs went for teaching as always.
Now got 8 kidso.o;
Are they gonna increase somemore?
But so far, they make a good progress hahaz, but hope they wont get bored after 2 hours:/ I needa do something!

Skipped work today due to lazinessx.x Raining so shiok in the morning, can't wake up at all. Gunna scolded by my ma zzz:/ But told the boss I will work on mon to replace, hope she won't z alsox.x

So atm, resting at home, tmw as well, cos nothing on, hoping I will stop getting lazy and start to go on frequent swimmings as a form of exercising:)

Till then, signing off~

-;-;-;-
Will the horoscopes come true ma? I hope so:)
Both of us have to maintain a healthy lifestyle from now onwards!

2010-01-20T00:03:00.002+08:00

Had work and CO today.

Today abit out of sorts, don't know why, must be the weather hahaz. But I know for sure, I damn blur todayx.x

Went for early dinner with peeps before practice start. Ergh, I still have difficulties playing xiao. Need buck up plus tk! I know I can go over the limit! Watch me! Slow but steady:)

Ergh, half asleep atm, gonna head off to bed!
Another day of work and CO!

Signing off~

2010-01-18T00:51:00.003+08:00

Went for performance yesterday afternoon:)

The first half was pretty messy, but after a break, the second half went pretty well hahaz.
So far, I still love the song Love Story, Qi zi de you huo, Orientation and surprisingly, cai yun zui yue and hua hao yue yuano.o;

Anyways! Went to watch 'The Spy Next Door' at yishun gv:)
Highly recommended!! Action + Comedy with jackie chan. No spoilers as always hahaz.

Today went for BBCO practice.
Ronald gave the dizi peeps new songs as practice pieces. One for tk, the other is to be played using 'xiao'.
I'm motivated:)

After that went to watch 'Daybreakers'. First time I see horror genre hahaz, but in this movie, nothing scares me ba o.o; But then, one teeny spoiler, its full of gore>.>;
It's nice, theres gonna be a sequel due to the ending!

Tmw off day like always, finally one day without anything to do!
Resting time:)

Signing off~

-;-;-;-
Too much stress ain't good, must try to rest your mind and body now and again ya-sayang-:)

2010-01-15T23:11:00.002+08:00

Boo!!! Backk!

Had practices and work as per usual. I know I kept repeating over and over, but thats how my boring life is atmx.x

Went to teach for the first time at a primary school, pretty fun, pretty chaotic, a mix here and there hahaz.
Afterthat go frontier cc, practice songs for tmw's performance.
I damn love the song 'love story', arranged by carrot!

Tmw performance, I'm looking forward to it hahaz, I like the practices alot.

I'm thinking, abit of exercise now and then is quite good:)

Oh noes, I'm so damn hungry now!:(
-;-;-;-
What's the next step I should do next?

Soup or more vegesnext?o.o

Hm.. wanna take a faster step to career, family, you:)

2010-01-13T00:44:00.002+08:00

Had work today and self practice as usual!

Met up with justina and meiling for early dinner before going co hahaz. Damnn, I'm damnn easily recognized through a huge crowd at e1 cos the 'xiao' is damn obvious hahaz! Like what justina say, 'like bamboo!' haha!

Wenshan came before 6pm due to UT. Acc her and yikhung for dinner before going back to practice hahaz. Practiced the songs for the performance, ergh, I literally died-ed.

The rest of the peeps excluding me wenshan yikhung left at 7+. We decided to stay awhile more to practice abit hahaz.

Afterthat, wenshan damn funny la! Haha don't want post here, wait she kill me:( But summary, 3 of us were singing some funny songs, mostly children songso.o And yeaaa, I was laughing and keep saying cmi before we left school hahaz.

Tmw work as usual, and etcetc hahaz.

P.S. I dunno why, but I find it so coincidence and damn funny.

2010-01-12T00:12:00.003+08:00

Slacking at home today and went out at night.

Hm.. Didn't too much, hogging onto laptop as per usual, watching the usual animes and catching up to the latest episodes. Continued my game in arcuz on funny-games o.o; Yep its addicting for me hahaz. But yep, just these two stuffs make time fly very very fastx.x

But.. need to fix up my laptop awhile this few days. Damn shock that my C drive suddenly became 100mb=.= Past few days it still had at least 1++ gb. Removed sims2 game to get some free space, ergh. This afternoon got error popup while startup done. While helping da jie search for stuff, firefox literally hang now and again, and finally hang dao very shiok. The auto-login programme has been disabled cos I changed the pw thanks to RP. Plus, the programme has expired hahaz. Yep, I used the tuneup utilities free trial afew months back, and auto login was successful. Ergh.

Went to watch 'Cirque Du Freak- The Vampire's Assistant' at 9.20pm:) Though I've never read the book, I quite like the plot and the parts of the humor found in the movie. Can't wait for part 2 of the movie! Hopefully soon:)

Back to work again tmw, plus CO practice afterwards.

Tried the application form, but.. I found myself unable to submit it... What is wrong with me?

P.S. I'm starting to feel frustrated.
60% decided.
Few more days to determine.

-;-;-;-;-
I see you.
How I wish I can be as strong as youx.x

Declan galbraith - An angel

2010-01-11T17:39:00.001+08:00

Another vid! Think he's around 14 years old at that time hahaz. Enjoy!

Tell Me Why-Declan Galbraith

2010-01-11T17:38:00.001+08:00

Enjoy! A touching song by a 8 year old boy. He's a singer still, and 18 now.

2010-01-09T15:54:00.020+08:00

Boo!! Long time no blog liao! -use vacuum cleaner suck off the webs and dust- bwahaha~

To start off with, HAPPY BELATED NEW YEAR peeps! I didn't celebrate countdown with peeps, but I went to vivo to watch Avatar that day, and went for a mini buffet with RC peeps afterwards:)
Oh yeshhhh, Avatar is damn nice!! Will be under 'best movies' for me this year!:)

Hm.. didn't blog for so long cos busy with life'?' Went out alot during holidays, and went to KL as a post new celebration before my work starts:) Took lots of pics over there, gonna some here ba!

Radius hotel! We stay here!

The steamboat area of the hotel!

Kopitiam!

Bed!

Parts of the room!

Toilet~

Mirror reflection in the room!

Morning and night view from the hotel room:)

Theres Somerset in malaysia too!

Had rojak prata(milo, cheese, banana) and tosai, my fav!

Now you know how pervertic she is, bwahaha!

Went to diff places like this, times square, sungei wang, chinatown etc:)

Jap ice cream and snacks!

Still in xmas mood when its already jan o.o

The interior of shopping centre! Nice~

Outing with 4!

Marilyn meets Marilyn, haha!

The leg power of Marilyns'!

Family of dogs:P

Da jie imitates bear posing in public!

Ever saw this in minitoons? I did!

Looks scary...

Actually its a restaurant o.o;

Watched 'ever you ever hear about the morgans':)

3rd day dinner at 'ROUGH tea restaurant' haha!

Kois everywhere at a kiosk on the way home!

Can you spot something very big there?o.o

Have fun there! Plus first time I went without my parentso.o; Hope we can go for another trip:)

For now, work life till feb(if I'm no wrong), CO life, and savings!

Atm, I'm bored:( no plans for today, except to make a plan for 2010, which I did it halfway! Hope I can fulfil every one of them!

Signing off~

P.S. I've been warned the first time. I didn't listen to it, and the consequences are damn drastic.
I've been warned again, now. Should I stop being a blockhead, and listen to it?
I will see what happens next week, and make a final decision.
To hurt people, or to hurt myself.
Time will tell.
I've got to stop being totally oblivious once in a while.

-;-;-;-
Days passed, stronger bonds:)

2009-12-25T01:44:00.003+08:00

Oops! Blog's been untouched for 4 whole days! Nvm, back to blogging!:P

Wells, those who wanna know why, the reason is; I'm sick again=.= Yesyes I'm very weak-faints-

Mon: Was in train on the way to dhoby during the morning, but halfway I had similar fainting symptoms happening to me. Managed to get out at yishun to take a seat before my hearing symptoms started. Had to rest for the timing of 3 passing mrt trains before I can even move. Damn:/ But yea, I thought its the normal but rare symptoms which I had before, so I continued my trip, and got out again at bishan, too cmi. But then the next train was full of empty seats, so I quickly get on, and managed to get some rest till dhoby.
Summary, it got more worse than what usually happen, and started to have a fever when I'm going on another trip to jurong point. Went to rest at silly one's house, told mum that I can't take panadol c:adverse effects on me. They don't believe it and made me had one. And yep, high fever awhile later hahaz. Stayed overnight at their house cos so qiao, its raining damn heavily non stop that night, plus I'm too weak to move about.

Tues: Went to see chinese med doc after my fever got abit better. Afterthat dad fetched me to trcc so that I can get my pay, and went to check out CO awhile. By that time I've started coughing:( Went practice dizi awhile with wenshan, yikhung was getting ready to leave around that time hahaz. Awhile later both of us just chitchat and slack awhile till around 5+, but yep, I rested quite long overall.
Thanks to the chinese med, especially the tablets, I had a splitting headache thats hella pain plus jaw cramps(what the?), making me unable to sleep during the night. Later on silly one told me that tablet got one of the same ingredient as the panadol c. Now I know why=.=;

Wed: Finally able to sleep around 10am to 2pm. Headache got better cos I had my house tablets during 3am++. Took a long rest afterwards before going for practice. Halfway through my fever came back, but still able to manage through the whole practice hahaz. Quickly rushed home afterwards. Ps pangseh jason and wenshan plus the usual peeps.

Thurs: Stayed at home whole day, and slept most of the time to gain back my energy and strength. Silly one came over:)
Now, officially friday, I've recovered, except for a tummyache, which has been on for 3 hours=.= Zomg, I've been sick 3 times this month!(zoom told me that, I literally forgot o.o;) Plus its the first time I've been sick in this manner(the symptoms to fever to coughing and so on), hope its nothing serious.

But yep, sorry for the rant hahazx.x But since its my blog and a diary, just wanna do an update on the days!

ANYWAYSSS! Thanks to those that are concerned, I'm fine liaoo! Almost:P
AND! MERII KURISUMASU! *Merry Christmas*! Hope those who are celebrating will enjoy their day and receive xmas gifts hahaz! Stay cheerful and happy peeps!

Signing off~

-;-;-;-;-;-
Damn grateful and fully felt the affection through those days hahaz. People always say 'I love you', but for me? I'm loving you -more-:) I'm looking forward to this Sun and next week's vacation outing!-hug-

2009-12-20T22:44:00.002+08:00

Slept late again last nightx.x And as per usual, sms wakes me up hahaz. Though I'm quite tired, but I can't go back to sleep again:/

Past my morning reading library book and rotting!
Had my lunch and used lappy afterthat.
Oh noes, I'm playing maple story! No life:( Afterthat play pristontale awhile, and poof, dinner liao.
What a pig I am siaa:(

Should be doing the same thing tmw as usual hahaz. Just realized I spend my holidays playing gameso.o; Now I seldom touch facebook also le.

2 more days to go! I can't wait!:)

-;-;-;-
Jy for tmw! You can do it!:)

2009-12-20T01:38:00.002+08:00

Had a -wake up sms- around 10+ today again hahaz. Thats how my days are latelyx.x Waking up early in the morning through wake-up-sms o.o;;

But yep, went to orchard to meet up with that silly one and had lunch at food republic, and had a walk around wisma, taka, and ion to look for bags hahaz:) Afterthat went back to ion and that silly one bought 3 wine bottles. Chateau is nice!:P
Ergh, I didn't know new shoes can kill my feet:( Makes it seems like as if I'm wearing those clogged shoes or something=.=;

Afterthat went to that silly one's house watch tv, ordered mac-delivery, then watch ch 5 and 8 movies at diff intervals:P
Pity I can only watch halfway and had to go home, cos its already 11+pm by thenx.x
Nvm!! 2 more days to go!:)

Atm resting my poor feet bwahaha! Heng no blisters, or I confirm sian diao:/
Gonna go sleep soon! So nitez peeps!

Signing off~

-;-;-;-;-
Pooh is MINE!! hmmmf! Can hoo ha and peek-a-boo! bwahaha~
No more hiding stuff from each other hao ma? When you say le, honestly damn sad, and you know I will be looking at that person abit differently from now onwards.
Don't cry le wor, it pains and worries me:(
Enjoy, happy, enjoy:)

2009-12-19T01:07:00.003+08:00

Yesterday slept late again as usual, and this morning I got a wake up sms from jason! hahaz. Didn't realize that his having his exam so early, and I went back to sleep after afew sms, very very ps I didn't see your very last sms about you go exam now lex.x welll, exam over, don't sad, go destress at sakae sushi make you fat:) bwahaha! Then I can finally say you got meat and not bones liao!

Went arcade awhile look see, and first time I go try the roller coaster thingy. Jason damn funny all the way laa, I'm more distracted at the sounds he made than the screen in front of me>.>; Overall, quite nice to play, just that too ex, abit not worth:( When I step out of the machine, I abit giddy haha! Bo bian, I don't go for roller coaster rides irl de, cos I got motion sicknessx.x

Went rp slack slack, play dizi, but the atmosphere don't have the -play dizi properly- mood:/Then chatchat + zhuo bo, afterthat meet up with jason cousin and went to cwy together before going home:)

Reached home had dinner, zomgg fatty me:( Played pristontale with joshua afterthat hahaz, plus I long time no play that game le, around nearly 1 month?x.x Chiong hunt for nearly 3 hours, and I can see myself burdening him, cos my strength damnn low, and my skills can't spam nonstop yet:/

Now listening to my blog songs and chatting on msn hahaz!

I wonder what time I will be sleeping tonight...

-;-;-;-
I'm sorry for neglecting you cos playing game and not doing what I promised.. Forgives forgives?:( Tmw's a better day-hugs-:)

2009-12-18T00:20:00.002+08:00

Boo!! I just got home! And I just realized I've reached 400 posts in my blog, thats damn alot man!

Yesterday went for co practice, and in some way, I got damn interested in the latest new songs and also abit motivated hahaz! I hope this motivation will keep on going:) Da jie bought kinder buenosss and kinder joysss, when I was gonna buy just one o.o; Get fat justina! bwahaha! jkjk:P
Had kfc afterwards with the same peeps then go home:)

Today went for weijie cc practice! Quite late, 7-9pm, and its at boon lay hahaz. Met up with wenshan first at the mrt station, cos sadly, I don't know my way there:( Have to ps wenshan cos the moment meet up I'm on the phone all the way to the ccx.x Hmm original eeyore ehh? bwahaha! You told the wrong person about this in the phone! DIE wenshan!!:P Faster hope nothing happens ar!
Sooo anywayss! We reached the cc, and called weijie, to find that the -practice room- is at the top storey. So we took the lift, got out, and is like, zomgwhat?o.o the orchestra has the whole assembly hall(yea, its like the sec school kind, not exaggerating!) to themselveso.o; Plus is air-conditioned somemore! hahaz! And yea, I keep looking about my surroundings, first time see assembly hall in a cc at the very last storey hahazx.x
Few peeps came by today, the rest either serving their ns or working or studying for next year stuff etcx.x But today so qiao, each group got a partner each:P Went through 2 songs; xi yi wu and hua hao yue yuan! By now peeps should know this two songs le ba o.o I got say this two songs before in my post last time:P Learned to play in a diff way thanks to uncle tong! bwahaha! Though I'm not sure whether I got succeed or not:/

Awhile later got a short break and self practice. I practice with another dizi gal while I spied wenshan like emo-ing alone practicingx.x Her -partner- went to practice with the 2 cellos:/ Heng weijie go pei her awhile!:P

Had ljs afterwards with wenshan, and like always, talktalktalktalk:P Then I realized time pass damn fast:/ and wenshan tummyache cos she drank too much coke hahaz, psps auntie auto upsize my drink, make me can't finish and ask you help me drink abitx.x

Reached home at midnight exactly o.o Have to take note, boonlay to my house = 1 hour, oh noes!

Tmw another slack day for me, maybe I will be youtubing anime-ing and gaming as usual to pass the time.

OH YA! Jason jyjy for your exam tmw! Don't think you will see this in timex.x But yep, can do it one!:)

Signing off~

-;-;-;-;-
4++ more days, looking forward to spend time together with you:)

2009-12-16T00:17:00.002+08:00

Boo! Major slacking today! bwahaha~

Wilson gave me a -indirect- wake up call today... around 2pm>.>; When he realized he damn ps hahaz!
But yea, i slept until 2pm?? Oh noes, just realized I can even sleep one whole day as long as my handphone didn't vibrate=.=

Youtubing as usual, but this time something caught my eyeo.o; yea, games again, but this time its maplestory, zomg!
Saw this youtuber's videos of a fan-made maple movie, quite nice in my viewo.o cos I managed to watch the -movie- episodes till the last video. His still uploading more hahaz.
Those who are interested in maple games and such(which I doubt for now), can go check out 'Maple Kombat' in youtube.
As a result, watching too many maple videos, makes me feel like playing maplestory again. And yea, I went back to check things out, and got out alot of times. Seems that msn is more distracting that maplestory=.=;

Going CO tmw, but should be going late, I rather sleep though. Peep double confirms/assumes that I'm -quitting- CO, which I'm not, and never said I am lols. No one can get rid of me that easily:)

Gonna go sleep soon, hope I won't wake up late again, hope the hp rings or something:(

-;-;-;-
If the plan starts and ends, what happens next?

2009-12-14T22:41:00.002+08:00

Yesh! The day is here! My last day of work! Da jie even text me that its as if I'm free from being tortured during work, but its not:P I'm just happy cos I can finally sleep in late for 2-3 weeks before school holiday ends and back to workingx.x

Go cwy to take a look at stuff:) Then go library borrow books, really miss the times going to woodlands library as a kid, and borrowing like, half a dozen books at once hahaz. Though, of cos! I only borrowed like, 2 so far now. No time to read so manyx.x

After that have dinner at ajisen! Woots! Since my sickness is getting better, like always, pampering myself with food!:P Wooo hokkaido scallops ramen and fried tempura! Sick in the mind!:P I will be damn z if I'm sick again tmw:/

Took cab home after another walk around cwy:)

Time for me, to slack, and rot at home 24/7! -snore-

-;-;-;-;-;-
I'm very happy, that you really, really enjoyed it. I'm gonna try harder and change! I know I'm slowly changing.

2009-12-12T22:57:00.004+08:00

Boo! Bought new wallet while going shopping afew days ago! Want share with peeps! And, those who like those kind of wallets that contain very zzz wordings, can go 'The Wallet Shop' check it out:P Atm got discounts! So gogogo!

This is mine!! Yeshh fav colours black and white:P And love stupid words! bwahaha!

The other one is da jie one! True that her money always depletes fast, so...

... she has steps to keep in mind before buying ex stuffs!! bwahaha! (and yea, money fast depleting cos she spend money on this wallet, haha!)

And.. that day, first time I wore dress outdoors! Hahaz sound sua ku right? A gal first time wear skirt/dress outdoors=.= But yea, confirm will have a 2nd time! And afew times more soon!

-;-;-;-
I'm glad and happy, that your alright now:)

2009-12-12T20:07:00.002+08:00

Woots! Finally a day of rest and slacking!

As usual, catching up on all the anime episodes I've missed! bwahaha:P
Then assembling a mini robot from the navy o.o; Quite cool when I've finished it! Plus brings satisfaction:P

Now my throat ain't working well:/ Ahhhhhx.x

But yep, nothing to blog today, signing off~